About two months from now I would be tested again for my Phosphorus, Calcium, etc. and if I will discover that my condition will not improve I might search for a doctor that could help me in this seemingly hardest task in my half-human existence. I now feel like I am just a lit candle that in time will be no longer and if I wait much that I could bear then it is probable that I will just destroy myself in the process of my patience.
It is now just madness to hold on to this situation and I feel that my body really had turned itself out against me and that I am just so hard-headed not to let go. This fight had came into a higher level and what is left was just me against myself and all other people, my family, and even my doctors I had sensed that it was already useless to continue to fight and I must let go and accept defeat.
It is quite hard to fight really if you see others backing out from you and my hope now really is my determination if I would not lose my will to continue to normalize my life if it was still possible. So I am continuing to blog so that I could save some finances because money could talk and make things real, even the things that seem are just a distant dream before will be a touchable or tangible thing for me if I will have something that I could use to save myself from all that gives me all these unfathomable life adversaries that no one had ever even had a nightmare of.
Since I had experienced a miracle before I would presume that there is still hope that is in stored for me. Prayers work and I know that somebody out there somewhere is fervently praying for me or at least including me in their prayers. SO I am happy about that and also, the people here at steemit that are unbelievably supportive inspite of I could never repay in any way except to just pray for them to get repaid by God himself then all will get their justice for what is for them in due time.
Hi @cryptopie. Im Rafael from Philippines. This is my 2nd day on steemit. I have been hearing stories from you from fellow steemians. Bro I feel for you. I was once bed ridden for 11 yrs. I lost so much hope and so much of my youth. There is great purpose for all of this adversaries. I know the feeling of financial problem and the value of money regarding health issues. Honestly if would have not been of poverty my case would have gone worse too. But when we are on the verge of despair there will come a time God will send the reason to push further. Bro I will be praying for you everyday may you just please comment your real name so i can include you in my prayers. I believe in the power of prayers in how it can move mountains most specially if there are more than too praying for you. Bro looking at your profile and other posts inspire me a lot. Believe me I have been there and praying not to go back. I feel you because as of the moment I am also in battling with my disease and financial resources to find my maintenance medication too. Bro you are not alone. We will all pass this world one day but the memories we made is what we will bring to that other place. The way we live is how other people will remember us. Your sincerity, courage and truthfulness inspires us so much. You are doing a great job Bro in opening our senses. My prayers is with you and God bless you so much.
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Hi Rafael I am Arnold Martin from Calumpit Bulacan.
I am a dialysis patients for 15 years already and I also developed a rare bone disorder that is called Leontiasis Ossea brought about by Hyperparathyroidism which also gives me a considerable pain, stiffness, and disfigurement.
My head condition gave me a speech and eating disability as well as apprehension and stress about facng other people for obvious reasons.
I am deeply grateful and thankful if you would include me in your prayers because as you caniagine this condition of mine is quite unspeakable to say the least and I am just surviving because of the kindness that I receive in this community, they know whom they are God Bless all of them and their families.
God bless you and I hope that you would see your success here soon Rafael.
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i will pray for you everyday. i was able to win over my own disease because of other people's prayer. You are always in my prayer. I am so happy to see you flourishing here. I am on steemit for 5 days now. There will be a way to solve your problem. Have a proper consultation and consult your doctor always. Would you mind if i share a food supplement to you which enormously helped me too? Do you have fb account as well? if you do can I ass you there too? thank you cryptopie. I am inspired by you :)
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Hi Rafael, I really appreciated your comment and I have followed you also. I am interested to know how you manage with your disability - I have a condition too. I am looking to meet people on here who have similar things to discuss. Best regards.
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Can I know your condition @francesmary. Acceptance ,proper consultation and follow up to doctor and faith in God's purpose.. These things helped me. embrace your case it would make it a lot easier whatever is your condition now
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Acceptance is definitely one of the things that has helped me - when I held myself in resistance and tried to fight my condition, the stress it created in my body cause me a lot more pain
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you hit the nail in the head.. that is exactly what im tying to convey inmy last blog entitled.. Gladness in the midst of Suffering ..Kindly read and internalize the message :)
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C'mon, man. No negativity allowed here. I want to see a photo of you in that boat with your fishing pole in your hand and a big grin on your face...
Stay positive, stay focused on your goal. If surgery is what you need, then make it happen with good thoughts, hard work, and a never-ending belief in yourself.
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i pray for you in tomorrow you are to better of your health and you can make you healthier. @cryptopie
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Never accept defeat in this battle my dear.Because ,God has already set option before us by saying in the scripture " i set before thee blessings and curse ,life and death but choose ye life so that you may live" from this verse you will understand that your life is exclusively dependent on your choice not by your friends ,family or doctor.So ,God had already advice you to choose life so that you may life .please ! And please !! Choose what God has chosen for you regardless of people's action towards you.
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U will be fine soon In sha Allah.. I will pray for you
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When we try nothing is impossible @cryptopie I am sure you will recover
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I want to be realized @cryptopie speedy recovery
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God created purity
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life is full of struggle i really hope for healing you @cryptopie
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@cryptopie I will always remember you in prayers and never loose faith in God.
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Good night @cryptopie God is always there for His servants are patient and kind
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I am so sorry bro. I hope that a miracle occurs. All streemers will pray for you.
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Praying for you every day my friend.
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You must be a strong friend, you do not break like this. if you continue like this will make your body continues to weaken. You should not give up, you must be strong. God is always with you, I consider that your pain is your sinful remission. and the process of becoming a clean man of sin.
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Praying for your speedy recovery and healing. Have faith.
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I am really moved by this post. I cannot imagine how you must feel - when you said you have a half-human existence my heart cried. You have my full support, and you are not alone. I believe healing is possible for you, as I believe it for myself also. I hope we can inspire each other towards healing and finding happiness whether we are healed physically or not - because it is our birthright to find happiness. I am glad you have your faith, keep it and stay strong. I have learned one thing that I will share with you. We cannot fight illness - the more we fight, the more our bodies become stressed. In order to heal we must allow the right conditions for the body to heal, and so we have to stop fighting and accept that we are where we are. From this place, healing then becomes possible. Do you believe that the body can heal itself? Intention and prayer can assist this process for sure, and it is our responsibilty to create the ideal conditions for this to take place, as far as we are able, and learning to relax is a big part of this. I hope this helps a little. Close your eyes and imagine yourself already healed, do this every day. I will send prayers and intentions for you also. Take care.
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fight fight fight bro... not only for yourself also for those people who loves you, specially your family and your steemians family!
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