I've been feeling fairly pumped lately. Steemit has a part in that. It's full esteem ahead! Been in lockdown mode, yet worked hard thinking over the years. To the casual observer it may seem like I'm barely moving, what it's been like is dead ahead slow. Read some books, kept some music practice up, wrote in journal books writing thoughts and poetry. All the while slogging it with my fam at our family business of drywall mudding and taping. Who would have thought a taper could be a philosopher!? I like the job really , just don't like living in poverty, and it's not that it doesn't pay well. I'm part of the system, however a job like that kept me away from a normal 9-5 lifestyle too. So have been able to feel that connection with the underground synthesis I've had some family crises to deal with. .. also eating fairly well kept me sane too.
Our tiny group has been rich in spirit! That's how we've done so well. Around the years 2005-2009 I had a little tribe of people around the small town and we jammed out. Ahh, and they complained how a band would never develop in our town. Few years later there were about 5. But I never really had an official band myself that played shows.
Also had a blog on old myspace in those times and would blog almost everyday. I am definitely getting that process/purpose again! Even when I haven't been seeing many friends/potentialfriends/pals etc. lately I have been getting cultural signs from the music and art worlds (even if it is my own rather small select world), same as before too. This time it's even better and more intense!
I've been into coming of age youth culture stuff for a long time. It's coming back to me again...especially when I see these old underground bands in their older age! Some of them killing it better than ever. I think I have felt old for my age which made me feel young for my age. It's all the rage!!!! Now I can hit the stage! I think there need be no schedule in developing an art form. As long as your facing in the right direction you want , you're getting there! The inspirations and opportunities are showing more as I march on.
I see social blockages as an exciting challenge for communication. What one needs is an opportunity to develop the tools. Yet society may be in your face distracting you. Telling you it's the wrong idea to try to change ways of thinking or acting, or what interest/direction to take on. I say find out what's at the end of the road as fast as you can so that you may gain experience to go in the next direction or thought experiment. It comes back to that stay cheery in a grumpy world.
I'm getting back to being weirder and weirder and make some out there blogs, stories and music. Have a sort of peaceful riot in my mind and sing and dance it out there. And use words as weapons - political actions on conceptual reality. Give the smugger culture what it deserves and gauntlet the gauntlet back! Don't be a passive observer. Also don't be afraid to step back and take a look. And these words are advice and reminders for myself. Usually when I tell someone something it's not just for them but to remind me as well. I try to figure myself out a bit better.
I've repeated some ground and thoughts so far in the blogs here. Takes awhile for the concepts to come together in more coherent format. I am working towards getting more time to do research, write, practice, rehearse and create. Keeping at it cause I'm feeling a sense of place and getting multiple forms of reward.
