750 SBD Can Potentially Change My Entire Life And Help Others To Change Theirs Too.
I know, I said that I would be out of Town and that I wouldn't be able to be as active on Steemit until I'm back. That's still true, but there have been some changes and I won't leave town until the day after tomorrow... So I figured that I should share this with you now instead of when I'm back again.
You might have heard this before, but one of my goals in life is to become a treatment assistant and focus on teenagers who suffers from mental illness. I have been a full time freelancer for several years and I've been my own boss. To be my own boss have been something really wonderful and it have helped me tremdendously, as it's been difficult for me to socialize like "normal people" due to my mental illness and it would've been extremely difficult for me to work for someone else. I suffer from anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I have learned to handle things better with time so I don't suffer as much in my daily life nowadays compared to how it's been.
I don't have to go into any major details regarding my situation as I've done that before. My father passed away in late 2012. He died at home, in front of me... And I've been suffering from these things more or less since that day.
I have tried a variety of medications without much results and I've been talking to different therapists. Some of them more ignorant and stupid than the next. During all these years I have often felt completely alone and abandoned. I have lost many friends due to my mental state. And due to the fact that most of the people I had around me didn't understand what I was going through. In fact, most of them didn't even try to understand... So they gave up on me.
I have experienced and gone through some really bad things and what I wished for the most, were someone who tried to understand my situation. I did everything I could think of and after a few years of struggling, I finally found someone I could rely on. This person, a therapist eventually got another job and I stood there by myself once again.
During all this time, I realized more and more that my goal in life is to support people who's suffering from mental illness too. I have seen the other side of the fence. I have been there more than once. And I have also experienced all the creepy feelings of being alone and without anyone to rely on. My goal in life is to change that, and to be there for others.
A few weeks ago, I sent an application to an education that starts in March. It's only 3 weeks until the education starts and I haven't got an answer on my application yet. I obviously wish that my application will be approved and if it is, I'll start to study in 3 weeks. The education is 1,5 years long and afterwards, I'll be able to work as a treatment assistant.
I will go from being a full time freelancer to full time student. I will go from being my own boss to being an employee who works for others. However, I am aware of those changes and this is something I truly want, so I am totally fine with doing that... Even though I kind of hate working for others.
My mission is not to become a wealthy freelancer. My goal is to be able to help others who struggles in life due to mental illness and I want to "heal the world" by helping these people to live their lives to the fullest.
Even if these things are completely different from Steemit, there is still many things that are very identical and similar in many ways. My @asapers project is about this too. In some sense. I wanted to create something that newcomers would benefit from. To improve the overall experience on Steemit. Newcomers on Steemit often struggle due to various reasons and my goal, and the intention of the @asapers are to support, motivate and inspire those people. And this is kind of similar to what I want to do in real life too. I want to help teenagers who suffers from mental illness. I want to be there for them. I want to help them. I want to be a sturdy foundation they can rely on.
I Have A Student Debt Of ~$3000 USD.
~$3000 USD is about 750 SBD at the time I'm writing this. (SBD is worth $3,91 according to coinmarketcap.com right now). I could obviously beg or make a charity post to ask for donations to help me to pay off my debt. I could buy a ton of large votes from the many different bid bots by sending max bids to each of them... But, I don't like the thought of ruining the chances for others in the same bid rounds and I'm not known to beg for help.
This is the thing...
If my application is approved, I will need a student loan to afford my living expenses and afford to go to school, as I won't have any other income during the time as a student. However, the worst part about this, is that I already have a student debt and I need to pay that back in full before I will be eligible a new student loan.
So, I won't be able to study if I don't pay back the previous student debt. This is obviously a huge obstacle but I have also felt that it is far from being impossible to pay back this loan. 750 SBD in total. That's what more than a handful of Steemians makes on just a few articles, so it's obviously not an impossible task I have ahead of me... Even though it's a pretty crazy amount of money.
I have roughly $1000 USD right now. Most of that is part of the earnings for my contributions on Steemit. So I need about $2000 USD more to pay back this debt. I want to pay back this debt with the use of my Steemit earnings. This has been a goal of mine for a long period of time. Not only due to the fact that it would obviously help me a great deal, but it would also basically mean that Steemit paid for my education to some extent.
It would also mean that Steemit helped me to make a radical change in my own life... And it would mean that Steemit made it possible for me to help others too. I personally love the "pay it forward" idea and I have always been fond of such things. Both in life and on Steemit. To be the benefactor of the asapers on Steemit, and to be part of a "pay it forward" project is truly amazing. And to have been able to come this close to my real life goals with the help of Steemit is incredible.
However, even though I have already come a long way, I am still far away from the goal.
3 weeks, $3000 USD or 750 SBD in total... And I don't like the thought of sending max bids to bid bots and I don't want to ask or beg anyone for donations. My goal has been to accomplish and reach this by myself, with the support in terms of upvotes and comments by others. Along with the ongoing growth of my following.
I have 885 Steem Power and that's about $3000 USD at the time I'm writing this... But I have delegated all my Steem Power to the members of the @asapers and I have every intention of continue to support and motivate others around me on Steemit.
So my question is...
- What would you do?
I could basically just undelegate my Steem Power and power down. 13 weeks from now I'll have the $3000 and I could easily get a loan of $3000 right now to pay the student debt and just pay it back in 13 weeks from now.
That would mean that Steemit have paid for my education, just like I want and hope for. The Steem Power I have in my account is what I have earned from all my contributions, so it would definitely solve this problem rather easily.
However, I have no intentions to power down. I want to grow my account, help others to grow with the use of my delegations and I want to continue to build my account further on. I am a firm believer in Steemit and I am certain of the fact that Steemit will prosper in the near future.
I also have no intentions of asking you or anyone else for any type of donation because I am not like that, and even though I would obviously be extremely thankful, I wouldn't feel comfortable with others paying my debts like that.
As I also don't like the thought of sending max bids to bid bots, as I know for a fact that others will lose money if I did that... It doesn't leave me with so many options. At least no options I can see clearly.
That is why I ask you...
- What would you do?
I am simply lost for words after reading that post. I lost my dad at 5 years old, so know how it feels. I sent my last 0.50c to minnowbosster to give this post a bigger vote than my 0.2c allows, I hope this is Okay.
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Thank you very much for the support, I truly appreciate it!
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I read this piece and somehow, just somehow I had tears role down my eyes uncontrolled and that's when I knew I was touched by this.
First of all, I just started following you and hadn't heard of your story or condition . It's all new to me. I am also sorry for the loss of your dad. I Lost mine too so I know how that feels.
How is yiur mental health now? Are you much better now to start studying?
About the student loan. I was amazed at the amount of debt and wondered how yiu managed to acquire such debt over time. It is true that you say you dint like to ask for help , I understand and I am like you as well. But desperate times they say calls for desperate measures . I think this is that one time you do ask for help. I don't understand how bid bots work so I wouldn't say you should opt for that but honestly ,if I were in your show, if I were in a cross road like you, what I would do is ask for help coz this is beyond you right now. Don't power down because you will regret it later.
This post is enough though for anyone who has a helping spirit. Heaven knows that is I have more steem power than I do now I would upvote this post 100% to assist you but I don't have much. But with the little I have, I will upvote you and hope others do the same .
I wish you the very best of luck bro...God's speed
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Thank you very much for your comment, I appreciate it. The $3000 debt is actually not much of a "big deal" compared to many others I know of. I have many friends with more than $10,000 in student loans.
I am definitely not interested in any power downs at all, as it would mean that I would have to undelegate the people I delegate too and that really doesn't work for me when my intentions are to help others to grow and to improve the overall experience on Steemit. Also, it would be a bad thing to do, as I am also trying to grow my own account at the same time.
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Breaking it down, you need to make $35 SBD per day... tough but definitely doable. I would aim to post at least 2x per day and take part in all the contests around... every SBD counts :)
Bidbots could work but they're mostly negative ROI these days unless you want to take a loss to try and get into trending. Not sure if that's a decent strategy.
Whichever strategy you decide on... good luck!
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That is very true. I need approximately 35 SBD per day. Two posts per day doesn't sound bad, as I tried to publish between 2 and 4 for a very long time. Things are different nowadays compared to how it was just a few months back though... So it'll definitely be difficult to produce 2 articles per day. But it's doable.
Thanks!
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Wow.... I love your attitude towards mankind. Despite all you have been through, you still want to help. God will reward you abundantly. I really wish I can contribute to your 750 SBD debt but I'm just a newbie still hoping for a whale to bless me someday. Keep doing the good work @hitmeasap, never relent. God will help us all
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Thank you very much for your kind words. I appreciate it. :)
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Hey @hitmeasap nice to hear from you. I am quite joyed that you eventually overcame your fears and huddles, the death of a loved one is never easy to bear and in the circumstances also. The student loan is quite a huge task, but if you have decided to add to your knowledge, i think you should really go out all the way for it. You have been a great impact to the minnows in this contest community, so am quite sure everyone will be willing to join hands to make this work. I like that you have self-preservation and feel awkward to asking people for help, but one thing you are forgetting is even in your hardest times in life, you had one or two people who stood by you and understood you for what you were going through. We can't all be judge and jury and defendant at the same time, you have to let people help and see what comes out of it. Someone commented you start posting twice per day, not a bad idea. It would not sit well with you if you powered down all your steem power because of all the people it is helping already and those it will still help. I pray God makes a way for you today where the world sees no way in Jesus name. AMEN @dee-y over and out.
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Hi @hitmeasap! I truly believe that whatever challenge you might have in achieving your goal, you will get through it. This may sound like a clichè, but we are never given a challenge that we can't handle.
All the best to you!👊😇
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I am a newbie with only about 1.5 steem and financially cannot help. But I feel for you as I have been through similar things. Keep in there my friend....it will happen. The best I can do for you is to upvote and resteem this post. Peace and all my love.
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You don't need to power down or recall your delegations. Just put out 4 quality post per day. Make one of them a SteemSTEM on your condition from your side of the illness.
Be happy your student loans are $3,000 and not $80,000 like mine. I am not even done yet but sort of plan to do what you want to do once I finish mine but geared towards kids in general regardless of what holds them back. Just to provide them a safe space that they otherwise do not have.
I also turned to working for myself as being in the daily grind was overload.
Just keep putting in the time, you will get there in 13 weeks or 36 weeks. The key is to get there, not the speed with which you do.
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It's good idea to not power down. Once you power down it is very hard to grow again.
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It is clear that opportunity to get some education is very important for you my friend. I think everyone, including the people enjoying your delegation would totally understand if you powered down to cover possibly life changing expenses.
An option that could help you, is to ask for a loan here in this community.
I know 2 users that can help with this.
@neoxian and @decentrabank .
I really hope you can get the education you deserve.
Cheers mate.
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Perhaps it’s time to work with a little magic, help from the angels, loa, or whatever you want to call it.
Know that the perfect solution is out there and know that it will come to you.
I bet that solutions kept coming yo you as you typed this up.
Maybe you can léase SP?
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The post is amazing and gives a lot of inspiration. Happy duty and successful greetings always @hitmeasap
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It's glad to know that you finally overcome your mental problem and decided to help others that are going through the same thing. I hope you could able to really finish your studies because your advocacy is very helpful. Wish you all the best @hitmeasap
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Often the people who have had the hard times decide to make sure other people have a better life. Being someone who knows how hard and lonely the world can be is a very good start to truly understand and help other people.
I am for education. The idea of people getting education later in life to fill a gap they have found is such a beautiful and necesary thing. We don't know at 16,17,18 years old what the world needs (Although we start to have our ideas, I don't want to ridicule them because it can be very good ideas). We find out later through experience. You are becoming one of those people and for that I salute you. We kind of have the same situation because my spouse is also back to school. I wish I could give you more, and I am probably not the only one.
I truly hope you can make this possible with the help of Steemit.
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You could borrow some SBDs from different friendly Steemians.
But you said that you don't like to ask for help.
Trust me, helps are asked for now-a-days, you won't get proper help waiting for it to come to you.
Plus you will return the favor(SBDs) anyway one day, I am sure. So, why not ask some dolphins for help.
I know you don't want to cause anyone trouble. These types of thinking eventually becomes one's pride.
Why not let people face trouble for you who are willingly want to do so ?
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Hi i need once your vout i need money next month to treat my mother, help me vout to replace you charity for me God bless you.
https://steemit.com/esteem/@apongneey/four-benefits-of-stone-honey-c64b777a56e79
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