Yeah. Can I say an awful thing? Sometimes I'm envious of people who have struggled with and overcome addiction. They're demonstrably better off than they were during their addictions. Sometimes it's hard for me to see if my life is on a peak or in a valley.

Of course, I'm glad I don't suffer from addictions. And I respect how difficult that struggle can be. And I'm sure that from inside their lives, it doesn't actually look like that. But occasionally, I'll just imagine reassuring myself by noting that at least I'm not smoking anymore, and then I'll remember that I never did, really, so it's not like I've accomplished anything ever.

That's darker than I meant it to be.