Betrayal!!!

Today is the day when I literally felt like I had stopped breathing. My feelings have been trampled upon, my shame is like a fabric to be worn.
Today is the day I will stop to care how I look because the make up can't hide the bags underneath my eyes anymore.
Today I realized that my secrets are no longer secrets when the leave my mouth.
Today is the day when friends will cease to exist. There will be no more fake smiles and happiness that I do not feel.
Today I realized that my boyfriend was a backstabber with a smile on his face and a knife at his back.

I wake in the morning and all I remember is the sour memory of his forceful thrusts between my thighs.
How can't you see that there will be no me sleeping at night but more of muffled sounds due to my tears.
I've been crushed, broken, molested, demoralized and shamed, but worst of it all I've been betrayed!!!!!!!!!!