"Let's see if I can get some work done." I love you, Steemit. But I need some advice.

After the usual extra sickness I get in the morning after taking my meds, I kept trying to push myself to pull out my laptop and get on Steemit. Took me a while because I was extremely tired and of course sick from my meds, but eventually I was able to push myself to start moving around.

Restarted my phone (it doesn't like to function if I don't), got it charging, grabbed a couple other things, then got my laptop set up in front of me and said to myself, "Okay, let's see if I can get some work done!"

What work did I mean? Why, Steemit, of course!

I'm disabled but no longer receive disability. I've tried the work from home thing, but those jobs are harder to get than most people probably realize. Even the ones that are total scams.

So I'm hoping that Steemit will help me contribute financially and help us be a little more financially stable. Steemit is a really exciting possibility.

But now here I am, staring at the list of articles I've been working on, while jotting down other article ideas, and wondering if any of them would even be slightly successful. Something I put a lot of work into and was very proud of flopped badly a while back. I didn't expect it to be super popular or anything, but I expected and hoped it'd at least do better than it did.

And that kinda scares me.

I don't just have energy to use on things. If I put a lot of effort into something, it exhausts me, potentially (and frequently) for days. I'm afraid that the effort I do put forth will be completely wasted, and as I have so little energy in the first place, I don't want to throw away the energy I have.

So I'm kinda stuck here. And I don't know who to ask for help getting up and started. I'm sure as hell not gonna go bug the whales I get along with, and not gonna bother the ones I don't know, either.

I've read a ton of guides and suggestions and how-tos for being successful on Steemit, but then my mind keeps slipping back to, "But if you don't succeed, you'll have wasted all that time and effort you could've used for something else." And then I just get into a big argument with myself.

The kind of stuff I've been working on is mostly articles involving holistic medicine, some things about regular pharmaceutical medicine, different conspiracy topics, especially speculating about some of them and presenting new theories for some, science in general, origami tutorials, stuff about animals, spiritual/religious speculation, etc.

I'm also the guy behind the Freebie Friday art posts. (I freakin' love Freebie Fridays.) I'd like to try my hand at SteemGigs, but I'm not exactly sure how to dip my feet in the water over there.

Anyways, I could really use some advice, fellow Steemians. I love you guys. This platform is awesome. But I feel kinda lost.

Thanks ahead of time.