It has been a crazy year for me, I have been going through many many life changes and most recently. I've became a steemian, started to grow capital in the crypto-space, but the biggest life change I am going through is divorce.
Divorce feels like shit
I consider myself to be a very loving and caring type of guy when I am in a relationship. I like to exchange feelings and emotions with my partner so we can connect on a deeper level. I feel like when two people do this, they can get through almost anything and grow together in the right way. I had this feeling with my ex-wife, we had a deep bond and connection and it hurts to know that bond is now lost. I sit here on my boy's couch almost every day thinking about the connection we had, it was strong..so strong that it felt like we would be together forever. So to now not be together feels doubly as worse, it feels like cord has been severed from your body, and you now have to heal that wound on your own...it hurts, and it's not what I expected to feel so much of. I expected to be sad, but I did not expect to feel like a part of myself has been torn from me.
The Silver Lining
There's always something good to find even when things are bad. And the good thing in my life right is that I have a lot of big things happening right now and a lot of things to look forward to. I am working and building my brand and name on steemit and I am continually learning and growing in the crypto-space. It is something I did not expect to have been happening during this divorce, but I am glad it worked out this way. It keeps my mind occupied and it keeps me feeling like things will be okay. If i didn't have steemit and crypto, I think I might really be in a bad place mentally. So thank you SteemIT, I love you!
I'm in a similar situation--not with a mate but with a career that spanned 30 years. I had to let it go for various reasons and went through a very dark period of my life that I am just now coming out of. The balance of inward and outward flow is real, from my experience. The fact that things are getting better in one area means transformation is working, from my experience. I trust that you will thrive and live to love more...
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Progress my brother. Im very happy to see this post because it lets the world know you have started the healing process. In due time my brother it will all make sense but until then keep grinding. Something about the struggle we face in life that creates one hell of a story to tell the world.
#circleoffriends
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@rondonson This is supercool! Thanks! Followed
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Sorry to hear you're going through this @rondonson. Despite this sad time you have a lot going for you! Funny how things work aye bro - I know you'll be alright life is full of these things & I can see the kind of mind you have to process & deal with it. Much love! Have fun in Portugal - Big tings :)
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@kaykunoichi
Thank you for always supporting me here and thank you for the kind words. Im working on making things big for sure! :D
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Really?!?!? You even read the post?
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That's the kinda shit I'm talking about
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oh... thats sad news from you... sorry about that... I hope u will be Okay..
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your positive outlook will get you through! well done! you have my vote for sure
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I've definitely been in the couch surfing position trying to figure out my next move after heavy hits. You seem mentally tough for he most part and you can definitely get though this. Despite your current situation try to maintain optimistic thoughts whenever you can, meditate or reflect as many positive memories to help you though. Great thing are sure to come your way. I don't know you but I see greatness for you. Keep your head up, stay woke and be blessed Big Dawg @rondonson. Keep your vision alive.
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Sorry to hear about your divorce. I've been through one myself and it truly sucks when you thought that this was 'the one' and it turns out differently.
But where doors close, others open. As you said: you're building your name here and learning/working in crypto space. You always seem so positive, and I'm sure you'll get through this and become stronger than ever. Much love from Ireland.
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@misslasvegas
Thank you for the kinds words and love. Doors are always continually opening for me right now, and I know everything is going to work out. Peace and blessings!
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Good bro..👌👌👌👌amazing post👌👌👌👌
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It'll be aight bro, way bigger things ahead man.. ;) - When are we going to unveil them to the Steemit community?
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@theprophet0 as soon as we solidify it! lol
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I'm sorry to hear about your relationship, that is sad news and will take time for you to heal. Take the time you need.
It is good that you have something to keep you busy. And it's good that it is something positive too. You're doing really well on here and I'm delighted to see you succeed. I remember reading some of your early posts and I thought you would do really well here. Keep it up - I'm enjoying your journey.
Keep on with things but also remember to take all the time you need to grieve over the loss of your relationship and friendship with someone who you care for.
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Keep questing for self improvement and good things will follow. The cliche is true, all things heal with time. You will love again and I'm sure you are loved by many. Stay strong fellow Stemmer
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Let it out. 💪🏼 "Keep yo eyes on the prize". Stay blessed
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I know this sounds cliche af, but everything happens for a reason. It is okay and natural to grieve in these situations. Allow yourself that time, man. It will help you come back even stronger. Pain is inevitable, brother, but don't let it turn into suffering. Massive respect to you, brother. One door closes, ten more open. Keep your head up! Manifest!
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Man I can't thank you enough for all that you have done for me with the #rapchallenge. I don't think I would be doing music again if it wasn't for you. Over time you will pull through and come out stronger. Keep ya head up!!!
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Really sorry bro , I wish things become ok sooner , you are great , i didn't married but I understand feelings and when you leave someone you love :( , it really hurts . that's great that your friend is there to help you in that situation. wish you luck man
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yes bruv!!! fill up that half full glass!!!
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Keep your head up man. It's good that you still have something positive in your life during a tough period of time for you. You are gonna come out of this even stronger than you were before.
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I try to always keep it positive, even though I am not perfect in these attempts..I know this will make me stronger. Thank you for the words :D
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At the End of the video...dam. It's all good. Keep ya head up man. I been there, trust.
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Man I respect the fact that your still pushing on. Going through all of that and still managing to contribute to the hip hop community on steemit is commendable.
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Sorry to hear mate, I haven't been married and divorced but have been stepped on a lot and know the pain of thinking something is so real and a bond and then it is torn apart.
Keep strong, keep Steeming and keep working hard at making your life amazing and being happy once more!
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Been through something similar, it's amazing how the universe conspires to awaken us.
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Hang on there (picture the kitty poater)
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My husband went through a horrible divorce too. You have to keep yourself occupied all day stay busy and focus on things that you can do for you. Things happen for a reason. Accept the change so you can move on.
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I feel for you man. I've been in a similar situation, although I didn't have to sleep on a friend's couch. That wouldn't have mattered anyway. I couldn't have felt any worse had I been sleeping in a sewer. I felt like the world had turned against me, and I couldn't eat or sleep. I wish I had a magic pill to make it better, but you don't need that. You're doing what you need to - putting one foot in front of the other, and taking life on. It's bad, but in your situation TIME is the only thing that will ease the pain, and I'm sure you know that. Once you get through the really bad part, things will be good again, I promise.
I'm not sure if this happens to everyone, but after a long while I felt nothing for my ex. I guess that sounds bad, but it was like EVERYTHING was gone. I wasn't mad at her, and I didn't hate her or anything, but she was just another person. I wasn't attracted to her. It really was/is very strange.
Good luck, and I can tell from your post that you have the right frame of mind to make your life even better, and you will. You're YOU, and you is all you need until you meet the one that it'll work out with, if that's what you choose to do.
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supper bro.....your post is always the best.....
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