I WAS PRETTY FRIED OUT FOR A WHILE

It's no surprise to me, that just like anything else I do...  I got burnt out! When I discovered steemit I saw immediate potential and I got overwhelmed with excitement. I thought holy shit this is my life now! I got started with it and became so involved that I literally couldn't stop posting and interacting with people. It felt great to see myself making such cool strides on there. I was totally losing myself in the steemit world and I never felt more connected. At first I thought the timing couldn't have been any better! I was in between jobs and I finally thought I found that secret thing that was going to allow me all the success in the world from being creative. Sound familiar? 

 Now that you see how intense my face is... well you know this is legit ! haha. Anyway! I would say I stayed strong through the ups and downs of steemit for the first 2 months. I had some pretty awesome success at first. One of my favorite whales @stellabelle had taken major interest in me due to a bizarre dance video I created and threw up on steemit lol. It was pretty freakin weird to say the least and I absolutely love making weird stuff. I soon found out that Stella was quite the creature with videos as well. I was so happy I can't even tell you.. I just felt supported and loved for me. I was so excited about my first $10 dollars I made on that video. I must've called 5 people to tell them I made my first $10 dollars blogging. One of the most memorable days of my life. Im forever grateful for you Stella! you gave me the biggest inspirational push I needed here and you showed me that anything is possible. You helped me more then you know. 

I kept creating and I slowly got more attention from different people on my posts. When I say I was obsessed... that may very well be an understatement. Some of my music posts even reached $100! I thought to myself holy crap I never have to work another day in my life! haha I was a little mistaken. I even made a video log about my thoughts on steemit and how incredible it feels. I spoke about how I'm in between jobs and I feel as though steemit is my new job. Fortunately I got the honest opinion of my buddy @lukestokes who mentioned to me he had similar thoughts about steemit when he started and he told me I need to have balance and I should go get a job lol. At first I thought ok ok your probably right but their was still that fire inside of me to continue on my steemit journey without taking a breath. 

                            

What to do, What to do.... I continued to try to make steemit work full time which resulted in some pretty intense feelings of burn out and disappointment. What I notice about myself in general is that I see in mainly black and white thinking. I don't typically utilize balance in any aspect of my life. I get super excited about something then I put all my eggs in that basket. This is not a very healthy way to live life. I still believe steemit is the best thing I've ever discovered and theirs no doubt about that. Honestly.. I got super burned out by never taking a break and trying to hard to make this my job. The most beautiful thing about steemit is that it is a community of beautiful people who will always support you. I'm happy to say that I got a job with a friend doing social media marketing which Is right up my alley. Im very excited to learn a lot about SEO and really all sorts of marketing tricks. It couldn't be a better fit for me right now. 

To wrap things up, Id like to take a minute to talk about how insanely grateful I am for this community. Ive gotten so much love and support here its almost crazy. Im back to being my creative fun loving self and I'm so happy steemit is here for me to take part in. I'ver literally been somewhat absent for this past month and I hated the feeling of not being active. Everything is a wonderful learning experience and I wouldn't trade it for anything. Im so grateful to be here and participating with you beautiful people. I apologize for my absence but id like to say thank you for all my friends here. You've shown me nothing but positivity and if it weren't for you guys, I would have no one to create with. If you've had similar experiences with steemit id be really happy to here about it in the comments below. As for now, Im happy to say I'm back and ready to steem forward! Take it easy folks!