November 13, 2017. When I was heartbroken and then she was present and acquainted. she started to fill my days with some chat and say "Good morning" or just give a little attention.
Saturday night on November 18, 2017. For the first time we met unexpectedly. And this time for the first time I was afraid to look into the eyes of a woman.
Yeahhh ... she made me not dare to just meet and look into her eyes.
That night there was nothing we talked about personally. We just joked with other friends.
It's getting late at night, she had to go home, because her parents would be very angry if she returned too late. For a moment I thought to say she was coming home because it was too late. Yeeahh she allowed me to drive her home. That night felt very special, for the first time I was nervous to talk to a woman. Hehe ... she was the first woman who made me speechless.
The next day, I chat with her as usual. But this time my chat is not considered by her. I don't know if something went wrong from the previous day so she didn't reply to my chat. Even if it's just "good morning".
It started to feel frustrated because it was used for a few days yesterday, we always communicate well and now it disappears.
After a few days there was no communication between me and her. I feel very missed with her. Feel lost in her figure.
Until finally I decided to try to find it in her office. Incidentally my office and her office are close. That night after work, I waited for her in front of her office, to just look at her from afar. I waited from 6:00 pm. ... The clock went on and I kept waiting, for some reason I was sure she was still in the office at that time. At 9:00 pm., she came out of the gate of her office, and it turned out that I saw she being picked up by a man. At that time it felt somehow I was very sad.
Why doesn't she tell from the beginning if she already has someone else?
A few hours passed, I returned home with a sad heart. Trying to accept what I felt at that time. Have you ever felt the pain of loving someone alone? I have never felt falling in love so fast. Is this love at first sight? Why should it be her? Again I looked for my heart. Because this doesn't make sense in my logic.
Day by day change. Keep trying to forget about it ...
I am sure at that time my account was blocked with it, so there is no communication between us. Sadness continued to feel. The more I miss her. Until finally I decided to wait for her at the station just to see her from afar, was she okay?
And that night, God granted my prayer ... I met her even though it was only limited to passing in front of me.
There is no word, no sound. Only eyes look. I finally calmed down because she was fine.
From that moment on I waited for her...
Will I be able to get back close to her and start something beautiful with her?