The Silly Beans. Thought Trip Story.

Has there been sad beans, sour beans, silly beans? The sour beans give you super strength! But be careful. Only use a few when making soup, I bought them from China Town. It made my heart feel like on fire, it was almost hard to take but it felt good and gave me energy! I knew I couldn't have too much of it. It's good to use to make a bit of broth. Also from China Town were some mushrooms used to make broth, they are tough, you can't eat them but they can work very well for taste and health in the soup too!

I detoxed lotsa stuff from these special beans and mushrooms, I got allergies as a youngster, then hives as a teen, then waking up screaming, then sleeping with deep sweats, then the inflammatory condition of Industrial Disease on the hands, so I could relate to Stigmata I suppose. Now I feel I can be my own flavour fire bean and tasty un-edible culturally therapeutic mushroom!! If I can break through all those ailments alone. To the tone of when they hear it they laugh, when they read it they weep.

Now I know no pose will serve me well, yet it is not severance from the situational realities. Can find the appropriate ways to act on in the arts. Keep it academic in some basis. Had some glimpses of shifts of looking at and out. It's like finding some solitude to think about public performance, also see yourself there out in the public space to see yourself in action too.

It really seems like it's got to be create your own fun time. I still want to protect my identity out in public, need a cover, that can be and seem hard, to want to express as much as possible yet still to protect your privacy as much as possible. It is a rude world out there, it can seem everywhere. Grew up with public humiliation so I want to get to public haven! Some work to do with society on that. Find a way to shake the sillies out.

Yea just been tripping lately, this weekend seems crazy in a way, should try to get some sleep. Oh these full moons and summers! They can be a busy wide awake time ride. I think I can meditate down, find some solace, try and break all habits for a sec. I'm feeling pumped too right about now. I want to use that energy right too. Not waste it. Take it easy, also keep moving forward. At the same time I am feeling or finding a persona I can use, create some fun kind of exhibit or display, mix some art and sound perhaps. Give people something to talk about yet it doesn't have to be about me. What I mean is tell some fun stories I think.