Love in my heart yes maybe that's the best word. But I do not really think of him. I'm still very unstable in determining who exactly I like. So many figures I admire. But it's just awe, and if it's like it. I must have tried to bury it. But if it does not work well yes just silence.
Tonight as usual hp lonely. Since I decided to not know the courtship again. Only my girlfriend that I expect more than 1 year I menjomblo. To me this is a very interesting thing. The best choice and the good road. But tonight Tania forced me to think again about the man, the thing that I was really lazy to do. While I was still in bed my mind drifted thinking about what Nia had been saying I was stunned.
Why? Why his figure can never be present. I know her since we both entered the seventh grade classroom. Yes we are a class and even to this day I was in 10th grade we both remain classmates. Either this was a coincidence or something but his attitude towards me was unexpected. It was seen when from the beginning of our 10th grade to the present. In fact I was amazed by it. How could he be closer to a friend he had just met than me who he had clearly known since 4 years ago.
Maybe the question was not for the first time, indeed since our junior high school was not as close as he was with them. Even though we were a group of lessons. We did not talk much. In fact, he seemed more engrossed with our other group of friends. I used to think that he likes me but it's not true either. Indeed I do not know the contents of his heart, but very visible from his attitude. He did not want me to be around him. That cold attitude.
Still about it I do not know what really happened. If I remember we never had a problem. We never bothered in a problem. We never argue. So what? In fact, I know that those who never fuss with him are now friends. Then me? What happened as if I were the person he did not want at all.
Yes I do not know sometimes I think maybe he likes me. But he did not dare to reveal it. But the mind is invincible. For what, where might there be someone who likes women. Quietly indifferent so I do not know. I just hope he can be natural to me. Did not expect more.