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Since we have no contact except through this type of public forum, and there are multiple people telling me how you never want to hurt me or Quinn, and have felt sad about the pain you are causing, that you really love me as a sister and know I wouldn't be angry about all of this, I just thought I'd drop you a little note to let you know that I have lost complete respect for you LaVonne!
This devious behavior, deliberately lying to our faces and to others in this post and behind our backs, not answering messages or making any attempt to communicate on any level whatsoever about this built up anger you are carrying around--not even once, breaching personal trust of even the sisterhood we used to share, taking advantage of and working multiple "friends" for your own personal gain and attention, and taking this to a public with absolutely no attempt whatsoever to even personally share the trauma you are feeling but putting off onto others is beyond despicable.
Your actions speak loudly of how you ran away--not because anyone was doing anything to you as you always had the opportunity to leave (and be supported in that) at anytime you wished, but because you are still running from the inner turmoil that tears you up inside (and you know what I’m talking about—which of course I could share if that’s what we’re trying to do here!), and since you can’t get away from it and haven’t for decades because it is potent and real and affects all aspects of your life and is extremely difficult to face, I know that from knowing you.
So though I’m not actually surprised now that you ran (though I was hurt and astounded at the time) because tuning into what is really happening with you I see that you are still sick from all of the messed up things that have happened to you especially in your childhood and when not being able to get away from it, it is easier to cover up the pain by secretly running and pointing fingers at someone else than to "dig deeper"—pun intended—and seeing why you are in alignment with the life and experiences you have created.
It is true that I still love you, and I think you need the love more now than ever, but I don’t respect you, appreciate you, trust you, or care to be around you so two-faced and deceitful, pretending to be a friend all the while plotting and scheming behind my back.
So much has changed—your being an instigator of drama and intentional intense pain is beyond fathomable, and unfortunately a true showing of your character I did not see.
I will, however, still hold space for your healing as I know the deep and dark secrets you hold inside are tormenting you. I’m still willing to have a personal conversation with you, and wish the best for your releasing this pain and for your healing.
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So you had to block me just to stop me from blowing your bullshit up with an honest response, weak.
Quinn doesn’t give me power. Powerful people don’t need to be given anything. Quinn helped me remove my dysfunction and reminded me who the hell I am. That is my power, a concept you are obviously unfamiliar with.
If you knew ANYTHING about me you would know that I don’t lie. I have no reason to, plus the truth is always so much more entertaining. You and I did live at the GOE together during Eden Metamorphosis (weeks before and after as well). This is when I witnessed you being couch ridden for days with a sinus type infection - which you yourself admitted was because of something being off in your energy. You even admit to this being a pattern for you in your own words in those posts. At least 7 or 8 times during that period as well you said you were making dinner and when myself and my kids came in at night after a very busy day, we would find you had only cooked for you and a few people or didn’t even bother to make enough for everyone and were just like “oh well”. Which if that was your intention that is fine, but you shouldn’t make it sound like you are doing something for the community when you were clearly not. You absolutely had a hard stop time at night where you would retire to the living room with your laptop to “not be disturbed”. You were upset on more than one occasion that my son came and took an interest in you, because he is drawn to emotionally hurt people, and he was irritating you while I was wrapping packages.
I have an excellent memory and am always aware because I don’t get high or drink, ever. My recollection of the events are spot on while yours would be hazy at best if asked to recount what happened day to day during that time. As for comparing me to a pedophile - I’m not surprised because the is exactly what a victim would do when confronted to take responsibility for their actions. Compare away, but the fact is I am nothing like your father and you know that, more importantly I KNOW THAT and that is really all that matters.
Now let’s talk about your intention to “help” and not “hurt” with these posts. Fact of the matter is when I advised you in a private message about what a dishonorable thing you were doing and breaking a contract and all the ramifications that would come from it, your response was that you were in the perfect situation to do something like this because you have nothing to lose. You KNEW it would cause problems and you did it anyway. That is not love.
You want to go head to head, go ahead an unblock me. Point for point we can see who is about truth and honor and who is not.
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