A TEST OF FAITH…

It’s been a while. I have been busy in so many things these past few days. I never thought that it’s quite hard to manage time if you only have 24 hours in a day. So much things that need to be done yet time is limited for you to make it.

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But this morning is different…I got a chance to stop my spinning-busy-world of teaching and unwind myself for the whole day. I got the chance to visit my grandmother in my father’s hometown in Bataan (Philippines).

She is my father’s stepmother. Although we seldom see each other because their house is quite far away from ours. I know deep inside me, I know, I love her. She is currently sick and I know that she is fighting and she wants to live longer for her family. She’s been suffering from diabetes for years now. I can’t seem to remember when did she first have that disease but the memories are still fresh in my mind when the day the doctors needed to cut her left leg to avoid the scattering of infection. I was still young then. Everything seems to be fine. I could still remember like everything just happened yesterday. But today, this morning, everything sinks in slowly. I saw her face full of pain, anguish, and hope. She is very happy to see us, especially my father. We visited her with the weather permitting us to do so. I felt how happy she is even though she can’t see us clearly anymore, still her heart makes her able to see the people clearly who gives love and support to her no matter what.

I hope God will continue to give her more strength to fight for her illness, that she may live longer and that her disease will be gone just like a bad weather in a beautiful hometown. I saw her battle scars and I can feel how painful they were when they were being drawn on her skin, but she is very brave to say it’s nothing. She wants to live and I could see that spirit.

I don’t want to cry in front of her, that’s only a sign of showing weakness and I know she wouldn’t like it. I want her to feel that despite how busy we are, we are here for her. I believe God is the ultimate healer. I do not doubt his ability to heal no matter how worst the situation is. This is just a test of faith and I am pretty sure my grandmother will overcome all these trials physically, emotionally, and financially.

This morning I realized that we should learn how to give time for our family. Learn how to look back and appreciate life more because we wouldn’t know when it’s going to end.

I silently prayed that she could see again so that hope will be restored on her and have the courage to fight the battle. I prayed that God will give her one more chance to live a normal life again. Be normal again without any sickness.

Death is inevitable but faith is more powerful. At the end of the day, it’s not about what we have in life; but how we live our life is important. Appreciate life and live like there’s no tomorrow.

- Switapril