Military affair

I don't think I could stand proud if I couldn't defend the ones I love. I think its logical to do what little you can in defending your loved ones and country.
As to that reason, I signed up in the airforce. Yeah, I thought the training would be less vigorous and more about flight lessons. I was wrong, I did so much exercises my body reached its limit. But on the contrary, it was the easier exercise, they thought us mathematics and aerodynamics that sometimes I thought I'm studying to be an engineer. It was strainous and excruciating and I was alone through it all.
I'm not so great with company, so I treasure the little friends in my life. I was totally drowning in all the physical and mental exercises I felt I wasn't gonna make it... okay, I wasn't gonna make it. Then she walked up to me,"you kinda suck, you know that, right?" I raised my head up, she was just a regular girl, no extra muscle mass, just a normal girl, with more stripes than me though.
She was, I think, a major at the time, not so sure anymore. I really can't tell why someone of her position would give a fuck about someone like me. Well, she decided to help me get through these trying times of my life, especially the aerodynamics part...I was sinking! Initially I was uncomfortable in her presence, can't lie, felt like scum around her...just so you know, I didn't under any circumstance, have sexual ideas, I sure didn't wanna get my ass wooped, plus I have a lady back home. Well, we became better friends...talked so much I just realized how much a usual girl she was... She wasn't the first platonic friend I'd have, so it wasn't new to me.
So the time I've been waiting for finally came, I get to go home in my uniform looking so serious and military... and I wanted to see my lady all dressed up and official. By the time I got home, my mum and lady had put up a welcome party and it was amazing. But the things I wanted was to hug my family and be alone with my lady....yup, its been a while.
I got everything I wanted, was finally alone with her, her voice made me so happy and the feel of her lips felt brand new. As we got more electric, the less of her I felt, I wasn't with her anymore, I was with the one who quietly creeped into my heart.
I knew I had fallen for her, I couldn't deny myself of what I felt, and I couldn't put "my lady" through such a lie. So I awkwardly stopped, and had to tell her the truth. She handled it maturely I must say. I beleive I haven't seen her since then.
Well, I went back to base the following day, I just had to talk to her, even if she didn't feel the same way. Well, shit just has to be dramatic! She was just deployed that morning and wouldn't be back until further notice...