Why not be true love? a thousand WHYS? - steemit blog teardrops

You didn't make it! Yes I know, more than thousands 😅

It's true my dear Steemians, we can be a couple without tl, haha.. the truth is... the most cherished, desired, aspired and longed will never been there anymore. I am not hoping even a lil bit. I know, love matters all but in here, you cannot find it. Malupet! For my failed rewards were, I don't have these all but I have him, he is present. I just don't understand why there are people think that... just because of our children, okay we will live together, together in one house? It's for the sake of the children he said but what about me? Do I need to bear all the sacrifices for the love to my children? Yes I did!

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When I was young and not that cautious then, I thought that love can be learned. But I was tremendously wrong. I am now oriented about it, it's not applicable to all. It may be effective to others and unfortunately I am not. Again, I feel sorry for myself.

I admit, I was carried away to the sayings... if this time is no, there will be good one to come. It says, love can be developed with the passing of time or as time went out. I don't wanna hear these phrases again... I don't believe anymore for the reason that I am the one who got it patiently and endured it just because of that belief. Now, it broke me down and failed.

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Who else to be blamed? People whom I got those kinda unreliable thoughts but realistically sensible? It's only me, myself to be blame. I fell in love with the wrong one, whom I expect too much that love might grow having a family to deal with, having children and the counting of years together. Now, I am in a state that He loves me less and expecting same way to love me. It's more than enough. I learned now from it. It's up there! I gave up, I lay down my arms and surrendered to love.

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How can I prove it to you all that? Yes, no love at all behind a house that someone might got wrong, a perfect family?? What? You know, when I got married, I learned how to ignore many important special occasions like birthdays, anniversaries, and Valentines. He was not into it such as greetings or even giving flowers like that. It's a normal day for him. No celebrations at all that could make me kilig,, ahhha.. It's really painful indeed since I grew up in a home where birthdays, anniversaries and more were to be celebrated and enjoyed. Maybe, many women like me used to ignore these occasions and say.. you don't matter to me anymore.. I can't understand why, I am living with this kind of life unexplainable til this time? 😐 sorry.. who wants not to be loved?

I thought, that I could not step out with this kind of relationship as husband and wife until it's YES, it's amazing! I won the game. I've gone through it, only civil we have. We are a couple under one roof and I should say, these hearts are in a right place but not beating as one. 😢💔 That is so embarrassing as a wife then an insult I think, but that's the truth of me. I never felt that I am loved by the one I loved through the years.

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