BULLYING IS THE CAUSE OF SUICIDE AND I ONCE A VICTIM OF BULLYING

Nowadays, bullying is the most common issue for a person to decide on ending their lives. The bullied person never feels how it hurt of being bullied. He doesn't even realize the person he bullied already dead. I am wondering and hoping that the bully will also go to jail. I can't even think how they sleep when the one they bullied is already dead. Maybe he cannot sleep well because of conscience on what he did to the person. Don't they imagine? If how are the feelings of being a victim. And what if they are on the part of a person they bullied, are they will happy too? Are they don't feel embarrassed or even hurt? Of course, they feel hurt! I hope they will notice and hope they also realize what they did so that they stop and there is no longer a victim for bullying.

I am always a victim of bullying. Because I am fat and because of my flat nose.That was high school and even when I am in college. I don't mind them but deep inside they killing me softly, deep inside my heart bleeds, deep inside wishing to disappear, deep inside wanting to kill myself so that they don't see me anymore and no longer hear their laughter when they said fatty girl, flat nose girl. I hate myself when they laugh at me, seems they laugh like a Satan. I wondering what's their problem for me, for being a flat nose and being fat. That time I desperately want to slim but it did not happen maybe because this is really my weight. I go on diet, exercise, jogging, swimming in the sea, all those I have done but still, I am fat and never lose any single weight.

They don't stop, even if I cried a lot. The more I cry the more they laugh. So, Where is the justice of that? Then it starts questioning myself again. Am I not a human being? Why don't they stop teasing me even if I show to them that I already hurt, Are their hearts is hard like rocks? The bullied person never ever feels what the feelings of being bullied. And it's late for him to realize that he hurt the person a lot.

I am in tears when I imagine those moments. Even up to now, there are still some people who keep telling me 'baboy' or piggy. Deep inside I have hurt again. I am hurt because I thought there is no one to say that words because I am old enough but I was wrong. I was wrong because even the old person like me still suffered from bullying. Lucky because I already knew how to handle. Lucky because I knew already how to handle my temper, but how about those times when I was young? which is I totally decide to cut my life. I am lucky because we don't have a private room. Maybe God made a way for me to not to cut my life with nothing.

These are my questions to those bullied people.

1. Why are you doing stupid things?

2. What if your loved ones will bully too, then you are the one who keeps bullying to others?

3. Don't you realize what you did after someones cried a lot because of your wrongdoings?

4. When you are going home after the class then someones cried a lot because you bullied them, don't you ever realize and imagine every teardrop of the person you bullied? If how important? Because when someone will cry meaning it hurts, it's an important matter why they cried a lot. Don't you even think that?

5. How can you not feel when someones hurt? And yet you keep your wrongdoings?

The sad reality is until now, it never solves this problem. Still, there are so many youth victims of bullying. I hope bullied people will stop and realize because they are already criminal and yet they don't think about it. I, therefore, conclude that bullying is one of the greatest problems of youth because you murdered a person silently.