@diabolika I loved every word you've written above, and could totally relate to every emotion that's coming out of them. I somehow feel the same, except the fact I'm a Chemist who's struggling not to fall in the same PhD crap like everybody else. I understand the problems won't stop. Probably, this is the beauty of life, and somehow it's helping us making a better artist by giving us pain, happiness, thrill, fear at the same time. It depends on us how we take it further. Either, ranting about it or putting all those emotions in one art.
To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. I SECOND that.
Wish you a wonderful journey ahead. Keep sharing!