Troll: (I have nothing against this person, he has his programing, I would just want to show what some people are like)
Bringing myself down from sharing and exposing myself online
Today a troll brought out a demon in me. I shared a video from you tube where I do a talk. The troll was attacking me and not my words and it was totally not a cool thing to experience. It hurt me. Se picture above.
So I challenged myself, after talking to my DIP(desteni i process) - buddy - to see what else was behind this point. And It goes to show that I judge myself for sharing myself. I would express something within a video or a comment and later judge myself for it. Thinking I expose myself to much, I should not say this'n that. Bringing myself down from raising my voice.
This buck stops right here! I will express and expose myself, my mind and my solutions and my living to everyone interested.
Check out self forgiveness at desteni.org - it can really change ones living
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as "to much" and as a clown and silly or a looser for posting lots on facebook/else and for making myself a name, out there and sort of saying to the world "here I am" - and for thinking that I do this to much and that I over do it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry with myself for seeing that I judge myself within not living my desires and my ideal
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create expectations of myself how I should be sharing and not - online
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to loos myself in depression from judging myself for not living this ieal and dream
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have unreal ideal and dreams about myself and life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like since my dream and expectations are not lived I fail and feel angry with myself for failing
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I fail to live my desires and dreams and within thinking this - I start to judge my expression and experience online as wrong and bad
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I fail at expressing my core, depth or any taboo within where I judge myself thinking that I should do things differently and that I am not ok
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry with myself and within this anger I would bash out with my mind and loose myself into despair and isolation/depression
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry and lost in despair within self
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face my own judgment - when I really just have to drop the whole judging thing and live !
It seam I judge myself for not living a perfect life. Like I have dreams or desires that are perfect (?) There is no need to judge. What so ever. There is however need to heal. So - dropping the judging and becoming life though self forgiveness.
Thanks !
Enjoy breathe !
