My Insecurities growing up as a kid.

Growing up as a kid I had insecurities about how I looked. When my family relocated to a new residence, my new friends there were bigger than me in size and I was skinny so sometimes they made me a laughing stock saying I'm like someone who doesn't eat well whereas I eat three times daily and even more but it was just my nature to be slim.

I used to pray to God then to make me fat even if it's a little. lol. Whenever we go to the market to shop for clothes and I pick a dress I want which I know is a bit bigger than me but have in mind to give to a tailor, they'd say "that dress won't have a nice fitting on you because you're skinny, just drop it". I'd feel bad and drop it. I was still a kid then so I use to cry my eyes out whenever they remind me of how skinny I look.

Sometimes when we want to go for a stroll or to take pictures, the will tell me to go change my dress that it is too tight, and that I should get a little bigger dress to wear so I wouldn't look odd or too small in the pictures. Just because I really want to be in the pictures' I'd go back inside and get a less tight dress to wear.

Apart from being skinny, I didn't really have cute legs too. My friends will also make mockery of me using someone with Strong legs (footballer legs as they will have it called) to laugh at indirectly laughing at me. So I use to tie my lower legs from my knees down with a head tie or scarf so it will make it a bit softer. My friends will always tell me to not wear short dress/skirts rather always wear very long clothes so that my strong legs won't be exposed.

One day my mum told me to go buy her blood capsules and multi vitamins. After I got back home, my friends from the same compound with me Asked if the pills were for me and I said and then they said I should take those pills so that it will help me gain weight. I took their advice so I bought feed fine and blood capsules and started taking it but I only get fat in my face and ate/sleep a whole lot but didn't really get fat in my body so I stopped taking those pills.

At 16, I stopped listening to what ever people said about how I looked. I stopped cating about the side talks people make when I'm walking on the road. I told myself I'm beautiful the way I am and I don't have to be big in my body size to be beautiful. I had confident in myself and then those friends of mine stopped saying rubbish about me.

A friend of mine named Gina also had insecurities about herself. Whenever I told her to follow me to a party I was invited for , she would reply with " I can't go, there'll be plenty of fine girls there and I'm too dark so I don't wanna be laughed at or looked down by those girls". I will start convincing her to be proud of her skin colour. Black is beautiful and so many girls ate looking for your colour so pls let this inferiority complex of youts go pls Gina, I used yo yell her . with smiles on her face shed go get dressed and boom we're get going to the party.

Another friend of mine named Amaka used to cry out to me about her insecurities too. She complains she's too fat and as such guys who approach her just comes for sex and not because they love her. She was actually suppose to get married but her fiance's mother didn't accept her, according to her fiance's mother said she's too fat and wouldn't be able to give birth to plenty kids. So that was what increased her insecurity about her size so she started takings pills and alcohol and also herbal mixture to help her reduce. But last I chatted with her she's gone past that shit, and now calls herself Miss Bold and beautiful...

Its high time people snap out of this stupidity just like I did and be proud of how they look. Just because a girl is too fat or slim doesn't mean she isn't pretty. Some guys like their girls/spouse big while some prefer their girls' Slim. Everyone has someone who appreciates them the way they look.

Please steemians Do well to upvote, comment and resteem....

I'M PROUD OF MY SKIN COLOR & SIZE. ARE YOU???