Dear Diary: I Hope God Gives Me More Days Until I Get Into My Goals

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I am not asking for too many years, just a few additional years will be okay but I am also okay if God would take me now or tomorrow because at least no more fear, sorrow, or pain and a better hope (again) for a much divine situation into which many Christians like me are aiming to go, the heaven where God resides.

I wanted to be in heaven obviously and any place in heaven will do me fine. If there is a gate-keeper or a janitor in heaven I will take the position with a never-ending happiness and joy if it will be in heaven. It is the best ambition among other ambitions to long for and cannot be equaled with any high position that you can imagine here on earth.

But it is okay maybe to make a goal and try to achieve it and with God's precious mercy anything can be possible. What I ask for is for my bone condition if not to get cured was not to worsen because any further weakening, deterioration, and disfigurement is too much to bear for me already.

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So if your prayers have some power in it still just pray for me so I won't get so burdened that I cannot walk anymore. I can do it if somebody will just help me with thoughts and prayers for me to get a miracle for God.

My family too is one of the beneficiaries of my efforts. I plan to renovate this home, it was made in 1983. The metal corrugated roof cannot support much weight anymore that s why I am apprehensive in asking my father to adjust the antenna of my wireless Internet because he might fall straight down and I would not like that to happen least I might have to get it repaired off-schedule.

I just want to have a decent-looking, safe, and functional house that is good to accommodate my siblings and their families when there is a gathering. And of course the toilet/bathroom, the cause of our embarrassment when guests use it. It is all an expensive affair plus my medical goals to target, just hoping still because I am still alive to long for a better life until my final days.