Ulog 7: Complexities Abound 🐛🦋🍉🍍

What is even up!! Guerilla gardening, parenting, healing....

Hi, it's really nice of you to drop by my blog. A few days and ideas have passed since I posted most of the images in this blog. I road blocked myself when I saw most of the pictures had loaded sideways and that I had to sort them out. Sorting out life. Seems to be the theme these days.

But, the natural life seems so simple. Real life, in contrast is irritatingly complex. Becoming a non-violent person in the midst of healing from immense traumas is seemingly more complicated. My son and I are struggling. We are having a hard time towing the line perse. It's extremely scary to think about where we will go from here. But, the flowers are still beautiful in their struggle to keep going. How will we find our way? The terrifying reality is that maybe for a while my son will have to live with other caregivers as he is not responding to my parenting as i refuse to be coercive and violent in my actions. But, he is used to the violence. And, so am I. How do we navigate and create a new healthy way? Through all this on the other side. Tomorrow we will see a non-violent communication specialist for consultations. A well educated elderly beautiful woman that was among the teachers in my yoga teacher training faculty. Good news is, i know & trust her. And, she's in the know about the basics that surround us. She assures all will be well. And, that is comforting.

And, there are the vast world issues upon us to boot. These clouds from a few days ago. While many post on fb about the beauty of the clouds, i see genocide. With all the things blatantly demasculinizing our men and boys. Gosh we are navigating precarious times.

Some soup i brewed for my step-daughter and for us. She was in China doing part of her schooling and came back with nasty virus. Taking care of others always helps me feel better. As a bonus we enjoyed the good food too.

To cope with life for the majority of the past 16 years I have clung to the 'positive thinking', 'mindful words' which has worked to a point. But, my psychologist is saying my brain is becoming tired. I try to build myself with nutrition, yoga, connection with positive family & friends. But, my true solace is in the garden. When I do this work i feel the most uplifted. The sunshine, and earth are medicine. Since I don't currently have garden space of my own, the little bush is homing my gardrning efforts. Which are going quite well. These are squash plants & peppers. Grown with the same fundamentals as the garden I did with my sister. Perhaps next week i will add some plots of beets, swiss chard and spinach to the mix.

And, really how to we accomplish meaningful good healing!? In a separated world. Between them, families & friends -- we are all suffering and programmed towards violence for the most part. Here on Steemit I really feel blessed to be virtually connected to numerous people who are striving to live and be different and this keeps me inspired that a better way is dawning. Until then, i will keep with my plants. And, do my best to stay off the meds the doctors are saying are the next resort. They will help us. I am disgusted at that ploy!! We are not suicidal. Nor are we highly functional. But, yet the solution in their eyes will be the pills. Do any of them really know and care who i am!! How do they even accept these methods as ok for themselves!!

Honestly, life just blows my mind at times. It really does! But, nature.... has no worries! The little bush is becoming lush!! The green is so healing. The sounds of the birds divine. Yes, i know.
... it will all be ok 💜🐛🦋