In the interests of full disclosure ...

I find myself compelled to share with all the followers of my blog a few things that I think you need to know.  The amount of information that I am dumping onto my blog is a culmination of a life time of experiences, research and insights that I've accumulated over the last 50 years.  

Why am I doing this?

Despite my efforts to live a healthy life style, eat great food, etc, I still struggle with memory issues.  I have no doubt that all the pharmaceutical drugs that I took in the 80's & 90's have done great harm to my vessel.  But the greatest harm was the six Electric Convulsive Therapy (ECT) treatments that I experienced during the height of me depression.  As a result of that therapy I have huge gaps within my life where I have little or no memory.  

Even over the last 20 years I've noticed a slow but stead decline in my short term and long term memory which is accelerating over the past year or so.  I'm writing this blog because I am deeply concerned that I will eventually lose a lot of what I've learned in my life time.  I've been through chapters so dark that I would not wish it upon my worst enemies.  I survived and lived to tell the tale and share what I learned through the experience.

The research and experiences are important to share with one another.  I know that I will take it all with me when I leave this three dimensional physical realm, but I also feel it is my duty to share with those who are here as well.  Steemit provided a perfect opportunity for me to do that and I am grateful for all those who are interested in my story, research and experiences.  As this progresses, I lean on my heart and feeling as my physical and intellectual components start to fail me.

I feel that the more I share the more I celebrate my life and honour the gifts that Creator has given me.  I think it would be sad to experience all of this and not share it with people.  That is why I do it and with my recent memory issues, that motivated me to dump it all.  I have lots of stories and posts yet to write and I am not even close to finishing.  But I do find that I am making mistakes that I would not have made even a year ago.  

So while you read through my work, please be vigilant and do your own research and ask questions.  I AM a spiritual being in command of a vessel that has been through a lot.  It is starting to show signs of failure.  While I will do my best to heal that vessel, I still must find a way to do my work within the scope and capacity of that vessel.  

I don't want people to put me up on a pedestal.   I am just like you, trying to figure out life here in this physical realm.  I still make mistakes and I struggle with my own fears, temptations and quirky characteristics while I bump along in life like everyone else.  I have people contacting me privately asking for help, but there is only so much I can do to serve.  I cannot do it all but I will do what I can to help.  

To be forthright, I am scared but I know that this is part of my journey so I embrace it head on.  I'm not looking for sympathy, only empathy and understanding so that what I share can be seen in the context it was intended.  At times I feel overwhelmed and as a result I struggle keeping up with all the correspondence that I get with my posts.  It is not that I'm ignoring you.  It is that the time to get to everyone is limited.  But my desire to respond is there and I will continue to do my best.  

To honour the gifts that Creator has given me by sharing my experiences with people who are interested to hear what I have to say.  For that I am grateful!  I love you all.  I really do.  I pray that my sharing serves its purpose.  May Creator bless you all with peace, freedom, prosperity, joy and love.