The past is part of our lives where we learn a lot of lesson's,but there are some things that keeps happening as the saying goes "history repeats itself". You know that what you're doing ain't right its just that you are so happy with the current situation and you became so hesitant to get out of it. Finding happiness at this very moment sometimes is hard. We use to hold on to something no matter what because happiness now a days became very rare,what I mean is real happiness.
Right at this very moment,you knew all along that what you're doing is not right but its hard to let go of that happiness because you became afraid of being alone and lonely again. And being alone with your feelings is the worst because you have nowhere to run,and they're here dancing in your mind but all you can do is handle. I think loneliness often kill people,it usually leads to depression and its very hard to handle loneliness for others. But I believe lonely is not you being alone,its the feeling that you think no one cares about you,about what you really feel.
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Would you still chose to be happy even if you know that what you're doing is not right? Well for some people they would rather chose to be lonely and do the right thing,but some may chose the wrong thing in exchange for that one happiness that they were not able to experience before. Thinking that they were denied of that happiness,that makes them hold on to that situation even if its obvious that its not right,till it became too late for them to realize that letting got is probably the best thing to do.
Sometimes loneliness clouds our mind and we tend to do the wrong thing. We often to say who cares,right,as long as I'm happy why would I care about what they say? Usually we tend to do stupid things if we're lonely,our decisions are affected because we find that we're happy in what we do. What we tend to ask ourselves,is it really right to let go of that happiness or is it wrong to be happy?