At first I was a scholar at vaccination. I have 6 kids and the first 4 was on date or atleast as close to date as possible. I fully truly believed that the doctors and nurses knew what was best. I knew of the conflicting sides but I honestly thought it was crazy stuff so I continued to do what the doctors told me was the right thing to do. They told me of the risks but they were so small and there was way more of a chance of my kids coming down with a deadly diseases. A chance I was not willing to take.

Eight years later I had my fifth son and again I was adamant to get his shots on time. I had heard about the 18 month shot possibly causing autism but I did it anyways. Again believing I was doing the right thing.

When my daughter was two months old I had her regular shots done just like I did before. A couple of days later I was in the kitchen when I had a bad feeling that I had to check my daughter and check her now. When I went to her bassinet and checked on her I found her not breathing. I was so freaked out I grabbed her and I guess the jolt of me grabbing her so quick made her breathe again. She took in a huge breathe and started to cough a little. She was very limp for quite a while after. She had what they called a near miss incident. Funny thing was just before the nurse gave her the shot I had asked about the risks of SIDS and the vaccine. I was told again it was more dangerous to not get the shot and that the chances were slim that it could cause SIDS.

After the near miss incident I did some studying and found that in a lot of cases of SIDS that the vaccine that was supposed to protect our children played a big part in them.

Again I did not want to believe that we as parents were possibly harming our children by listening to the doctors and nurses. I was brought up that there was people in authority and we needed to listen to them due to their education and status in life. I was just a little nobody who didn't know anything.

When my son was 7 years old he was diagnosed with autism. Again my kids were in the circle of possibility. No one wanted to link my kids to the vaccine debate. It was just pure coincidence that both my kids had all their shots and they both had issues. There was not a chance my doctor was going to say anything bad about vaccines. So that is when I made the decision to vaccinate no more.

I don't go around telling people my story too often because they might think I am weird. They already do considering I left a beautiful home in the subhurbs and decided to try my luck at homesteading. The whole non vaccinating would just prove the point that I walk to a different beat. But in my heart and I am not asking anyone to take my views I believe I harmed my kids by having them vaccinated. Funny how life goes as a parent you try your best to protect your kids in everything little did I know that I wasn't protecting them after all. For my family we will ask many more questions before we just believe the mainstream.

I am by no means trying to persuade anyone to take the non vaccinating route but I do believe everyone should have the right to knowledge so they can make their own choices in life. By sharing my story it may or may not help. Thank you for reading my story.

My Two Beautiful Kids Now