Vanished: I Lost an amazing friend!

in vanished •  7 years ago  (edited)

The other day I lost an amazing, wonderful, caring, heart warming, empathetic, loving, mysterious, smartest, "truthseeker" person I have known in my life!
& I have no idea why or where she went!

She just vanished! Closed all her social media accounts: Twitter, YouTube channel, web site, Smashwords, Reddit... & I'm sure a few others I don't know about, & Gone!

We met online several months back & became friends through a strange connection I won't go into at this time. We shared many strange ideas & disagreed on a few as well. But we respected each others thoughts & I supported her channels. We mostly chatted through Twitter, but also on her YouTube channel & talked on Skype a couple of times.
She became close to my heart!

Although we never met I person, or even seen each other, we had great respect & a kind of love for each other that was special to me.... & I thought for her as well. At least thats what I was told by herself & by a 3rd party who we both chatted with. This 3rd party expressed to me that she really cared for me & had concerns for my health as well. I am a diabetic you see & have a few problems with it & sometimes shared with her how I was feeling.
I shouldn't have maybe.

I also see things..... Future things... Things away from where I am. I have no idea when or what I will see, but I do. I often shared these dreams... Visions... Travels with her. Sometimes things about her, or where she was or what she was doing or about to do. She was totally OK with this & liked it, was amazed by it & how accurate I could be. I have no idea how it works. She was helping me with it sometimes.

Last week, March 11 - 14, I was having a series dream. A precogntion of things future or distant from me, that became more detailed each dream. I would share each one with her. But before I got to the final dream, the one that really explained it all to me, she vanished!

It was the 3rd of 4 dreams that I was telling her about. Her last response was, "that's interesting". I went on telling her about it.
But it wasn't until about 8 hours later I realized my tweets only went 3 or 4 more after her last response, weren't going anywhere as she had left our private chat on Twitter... Actually quit it... For good! I thought maybe she accidentally quit it so I re-invited her in only to find she didn't exist!
In fact, her whole Twitter account was gone!!

WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED?

I started to freak out that Twitter kicked her off for some reason..... I went to her YouTube channel.... It was gone too! Now this was something she really enjoyed doing! Posting her research & thoughts on YouTube & Twitter. And she was good at IT... . Completely gone!
I checked some of her other sites & web page -
GONE!

I went back to Twitter to ask a mutual friend about this. But then remembered she too was gone. Gone for 2 weeks to work on building a house that is in a remote area. She goes & does this every few weeks for a week or two ... Works on building her new house.... But here too was something strange...

The 3 of us also had a private chat, all together. & this mutual friend had removed herself from this one too. Both of them were gone from both chats! (the 3 of us & the 2 of us)
At least the mutual friend still had her Twitter account up. So I sent a few messages asking what was going on!? This was really confusing & really hurting me deeply!

I guess I'll have to wait another week until the mutual friend comes back into cell service & hopefully responds with an answer & does not delete her account too!

I am so terribly saddened by this! It's all I think about 24/7. I can't sleep! No appetite!

I never had an internet connection or friend before. & thus was more than that. It's was special! I hope she sees this & at least responds with a reason why & says goodbye! At least then I'll know something & can deal with it. But not knowing why if what happened to her or if I did or said something of scared her with my vision... Well, it's eating me up inside!

I am a very caring, passionate, loving, funny, loyal guy.
Any I don't hand out my friendship or thoughts or feelings to just anyone! There if coarse is a lot more to this story that makes our connection special that I will have to share at another time, like; I knew she was dying from cancer before she did & told her she better get to a Dr. Fast!

But more later. (I have other interesting true stories too)
Thanks for listening.... & TSF if you're out there & you're reading this, please let me know you're OK! Please! & it would really help me if I understood, WHY?

"Much love",💔😂
Corey

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I can Not erase the footprints she left on my heart & mind! 💔 👣👣👣👣👣👣👣
My heart is a little darker by the light that left it! 🖤

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