I can't live with heart and soul...

I can't live with heart and soul...
I can't be happy...
But I don't want to waste my life...
I just want to breathe, to live...
I have an unknown depression...
Tears every day...
I have unpredictable aggression...
No longer afraid of a bad dream and thunderstorms...
I don't believe anyone, I'm disappointed...
In the maze of life lost....
Within the cold void...
End....I fell to the bottom....
Have forgotten what happiness and laughter...
Is not afraid to feel sin...
I'm like a masochist now...
Nothing to fear, and slowly killing yourself...
Do not feel any feelings...
Do not distinguish between tears and rain.....
Where did my happiness, I do not know...
A place in life looking for...
....it mysteriously disappeared...
I felt guilty about it...
But it's too late.....
My heart said sternly...
I was gone to who knows where....