Life is always unexpectedly bland, just contradictory to move forward. On the first day of employment, I was a little flustered.
After preparing so many opening remarks to introduce myself, I was even more anxious and couldn't fall asleep yesterday. I naturally woke up at six o'clock, and it seemed that I hadn't slept peacefully all night.
The morning was surprisingly calm, without fear, without unnecessary worry, and strode towards a new beginning.
Walking around barefoot on the ground as usual, I like to mop the ground spotlessly. At present, the working place is 1.8 kilometers away from me, and it is about 30 minutes on foot. There is no rush, no rush, just a walk to work.
It turns out that all my opening remarks are useless. No one cares where you come from, and no one cares whether you are fluent in expression, and even you didn't introduce yourself.
There is an office chair in the corner alone, a pile of documents that you need to sort out from scratch, and the docked items appear at the desk one after another, doing their own things in an orderly manner.
At noon, the company is in charge of the meal. A little bit of dishes really makes me feel stingy. It seems to be an excellent thing to think about having someone take care of the meal. Even if the meal is not so satisfactory, it is better than buying and eating it yourself.
I only ate a little bit, and returned to the corner of the office. There is no surprise or joy. Everyone has to work. Although I don't like it, I will do my own thing seriously.
My desk is next to the window, and occasionally I stand up for ventilation. Outside the window is a bustling crowd. Sometimes I think I am them but I am not. Isn't this very contradictory!
In fact, there is no contradiction, and I will gradually discover that this is just a restlessness of the heart, everything outside.
It just triggers my heart. If my heart can settle down, these things don't matter. The nagging above is actually just nagging.
It's a pity that I can't always keep this quiet state of mind.
Maybe this also requires practice. I hope I can make progress slowly, move forward steadily, and have a strong and stable heart.