__It's not that am stupid, because in the beginning I knew it wasn't right
It's not that love is stupid it's just unfair,
It's not that I don't know it's wrong or that you don't know either but we do it anyways,
I love you and I say that with all my heart and everything I hold dear, but it's not the same when you say it to me,
All I ask is to be that tiny Spark that lights up your day,
That voice you always want to hear,
The person you promise to see tomorrow even when you know you are broke beyond any proper description and it would be impossible,
That person who makes you smile, just like you are to me but it seems what I ask for is something you can't provide.
I love love,
All my life it's the only thing I have ever asked for, but all my life but it's the only thing I have felt is beyond my reach so I do not have any reason to trust it.
I have loved and lost, so I know pain and its something I don't wish to experience again, so pardon me if I don't call you even though I want to, and pardon me if I don't say I love you when you do, I just can't take it anymore.
I have gotten to a point where all I can think about is you, I look up at the night sky and I see these 3 stars that are always together forming 1 line and all they mean to me is 3 words and 1 sentence "I love you" but here I am feeling the insecurity of our love not because you don't love me but because our love is false, all we do is fawn and once again my brain looks at my heart with complete disdain and utter disgust "it's your fault"__