The endless night

I opened my eyes and I saw only a light that was coming towards me, a strong sound accompanied it, it was so close to me, but a small person got out me of the way, the car quickly passed and a person cursing me for being on the road and not Take me out, but it was not my fault, I did not know where I was. A shrill voice was talking to me and asking things, I do not know what she was saying, I just listened sometimes, I got to hear a "Do you think to leave me like this?" but I did not even think, I did not know what was happening, I just felt weak, sad, wanting to just go to bed. While I was looking at the wet sidewalk, some small hands touched my face and made me see her directly to her bright black eyes, it was my partner who spoke to me, she always had a beautiful shine in her eyes when she looked at me, but on that occasion I think she was close to cry, to avoid seeing that beautiful face full of sadness I told her to go home so we could go to bed and sleep. It had rained, the streets were wet and bright from the lights, there was brightness in the sky by the stars and on the ground by the reflection of the lights on the asphalt, although everything was full of light, I felt like I was full of darkness.

We arrived at the house, the lights were on, as if it was recently that we left the house, although I do not remember if it had left the house or where, it was just there in the middle of the street... I think it was like that because I had seen...

-Are you going to the meeting today? - she interrupted me in my thoughts.

-I think so...

I did not remember that I had to meet with my friends, just to talk and play a little, it is good to have contact with old and new friends from time to time, they make you get rid of the weight and burdens that you have on a daily basis. I ate something fast that was made in the kitchen, I think someone bought it, but it was not me, maybe she... No, no, I must arrive on time, I should not think about these things, then I will have time to think, I should distract me a bit and then I'll think what the fuck happened.

While leaving the house I said goodbye to my partner and I saw how she smiled at me, that beautiful smile that I love so much. I walked to the meeting place, it was not too far from my house and I wanted to walk for a while, to free from my mind those clouds that darkened my memory, I was walking for a few minutes, it came to my mind that the answer would come alone if I let it arrive, I should just wait and the answer to my questions would come sooner or later for me. When I arrived at the house where the meeting would be, they had all arrived, I was the only one who had arrived late; a very strange thing in me, but nobody gave much importance, greet all my friends, we began to eat, to drink, to talk about the everyday things of our days, I did not remember the last time I had been so happy and feel safe, not after that night when... that night... when I saw...

-WE NEED CARDS! - Shouted my friend who was drinking more, I guess it was a long week for her.

-I will bring some of the house, I also have several games, I will bring them - I said trying to calm my friend who did not want to accept that she was getting drunk.

-If you want I'll take you in the car- said a friend offering a help

-No thanks, I'll be walking, in less than twenty minutes I'll be back

While I was walking I was thinking that I should accept my friend's help, if I brought many things back I could not hold it with my hands, I think I rushed to say no, but something tells me it was the best option, I do not know, I feel that there is more than one "me" right now.

In front of my house there is a blue car, I had not seen it before, I think it's a visit from the neighbor and I do not pay much attention, it's just one side of the sidewalk, not so much to worry about, before entering the home I hear some barking coming from outside, I see the back of the house sideways and I can see Pancho, my dog ​​tied back, I go back to the main entrance to open the door immediately, I felt something was wrong from the beginning and In that moment I knew it, my dog ​​should not be moored, much less out in the night while it looks like it's going to rain.

I enter with total secrecy, not because I decided completely, a voice in my head said "Enter carefully and without making any noise" I do not know what I do obeying those voices that sound like mine, but something must know that I do not. I look at the dining room and I see food bought, I do not remember that I bought it or that my partner did it, it seems strange to me, we never buy ready food unless we want to eat something different, something is not right; separating that my Pancho is out with cold, but before going to let go I want to know where the fuck is my partner. I climb the stairs with great care while I hear some noises... no, moans, strong breaths, gasps, I approach the door where my room is and a tear comes out of my right eye, as if I was already seen what was pointing to see, I go a little closer to the door and I see that it is not closed at all, there is a small opening where I can see and I see her with another person, the two touching each other in a wild and unloving way, apparently hurried, I see how my partner lets himself be dominated by the other body without a name, without a face, I can feel her breathing even being so far away, tearing the skin of his lover and whispering things that my human ear could not hear, but I was there, watching she cheated on me and she enjoyed it.

She was immersed in the pleasure of the inappropriate, but as she moved her head from side to side for pleasure, she opened her eyes at the exact angle where I was standing, a painful figure, crying standing up and still looking, giving shame and pity. I notice her look of surprise and fear, so the best thing for me is to leave there, I do not want to have an argument with her and a fight with the other person, I do not even know who is to blame or if someone is perhaps at fault what to load. There was a minimum rain when I left the house, it was not very strong, only a few drops, I just looked at the ground, I was guided by the reflection of the post lights, but that road took me to a shining asphalt road. I was not on the sidewalk? I look up and see a flash, a sound accompanies it, I think it's a car...