What I've lost

I’m stuck in a situation I can’t let go,
Revisiting the same places as I did before.
I’m weak
from all the pain and heartache my life has overcome.
I can’t get over not being the one on top,
because I’ve lost so much
but gained a lot.
Day to day I feel insecure
because no ones there when I open the door;
It’s as empty as the space in my heart.
I’ve lost so much
but I’ve gained a lot.
I don’t know what to do because I’m all alone.
I’ve been locked in a cold, cold place,
and I can’t get home.
I think to myself,
if I’ve lost so much but gained a lot why is there no me?
or do they ever see?
‘Cause I was torn over what I lost,
I did not have a lot.
Stuck in the same cold place as in my heart,
I can’t get over the fear I’ve got.
Lost in the same dark, gloomy place
all over again,
Stuck on that same road
that broke at the bend.
Maybe what I’ve lost wasn’t a lot,
Maybe all I’ve gained was a new heart.