Control

in writing •  8 years ago 

Control

You try to trap me
in amber,
but I am no historical beast
gnashing my teeth
even if I leave
mythological footprints.

You want to hold me
under water,
but I know when to pause
my breath
and when to say
I'm free.

So you gnash your teeth
and sputter
not knowing I can see
your wishes
or that I am able
to grant my own.


I have been using poetry as a way to condense my thoughts and clarify my feelings around the devastation of a toxic relationship ending. There has been a constant push and pull inside me for the last few months. It was enacted from the outside, by my psychological captor. This person wants to "keep" me in order to retain emotional control. But I am tired of their efforts to immobilize me even more than I am tired of feeling sad and caring for their outcome. I can't put time into easing their supposed heartbreak at the loss of me because, whether they really feel sad or not, that is also a manipulation.

Poetry is useful for imposing form on chaos. Thank you for reading what I've been writing. This and my fictional pieces have been a most excellent escape.

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Amber works well with the idea of what once was. Hope things work out for you through this unhappy time, bad breakups suck, but you become stronger in the end.

Thank you!

Wow! That poem spoke to me~

I'm happy to hear it. :)

Nice poetry I like the way use words to explain your thoughts. i guess you have been writing poems for a long time i look forward to reading more of your poems

Thank you. :)

Well don't lose your cool. Real winners control themselves well and keep themselves above everything.

Your toxic ex-partner has lost it.

It's true--keeping my cool is the key here. Hard to do but necessary and worth it.