Small Talk #Reflections

I know that the title is 'small talk' but this ain't no shallowness. It's just me looking for myself lost in a head harbouring a throbbing migraine right now. The day was long. I had a date with some government offices.

Tomorrow morning I have to go back and the thought of that probably is also a reason why I am here talking to myself writing.

After January rains (which are unheard of on my side of the world by the way) the Saharan sun is out to play. That plus zero shades, demeaning members of the public service at the said office and two hour long turns to be served, has my patience at minus zero and the disappointment further down the line.

It is so fucking draining.

That aside... I feel like it's a good start for some things I promised myself. I am here a bit often than I have been since I joined the chain. Reading a bit more. And that is making me realise that there is some power in achieving micro goals that affect the major ones. Consistency is truly key.

Something else to celebrate is my getting comfortable with writing and posting freewrites. Simple thoughts and reflections that can otherwise not be shared. This is proving healthy for my usually disorderly mind. There's something different about writing like this over channeling my emotions via poetic pieces.

Lost? I'll explain.

Since I am gifted in a miniaturized style of writing poetry, most of the time I bottle whatever darkness can't fit into my words. I love penning positive and erotic vibes so an experience like today would have been bottled up if I didn't write about it.

Like how do you transform sarcasm, attitude and straight out rudeness into an erotic piece? It is impossible.

So freewrites take the day. Their randomness and generalisedness (yes I can invent nonexistent words too) of any topic whether ranting or just sharing is the awesomest tool a free thinker can have as a skill.

I have been looking for the fluency of a freewrite without losing whoever decides to read whatever comes together for a while. And I don't think I have it all figured out yet but there is some hope that soon I might have if I work hard enough.

Getting here has been a process. One that has cost me the openness of letting people follow my sentences wherever they take them. The willingness to be criticized positively and negatively to find growth in it all.

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... the end of a not such a small talk small talk... thank you for coming.

BQ.