Afternoon Steemit,
Recently I wrote about suffering from anxiety and how much I really hated how I was feeling. I really wanted to share an update with you all on how I am now.
Good Days Vs Bad Days
Last week I felt down, depressed and worthless. I was upset and all I wanted to do was pour my heart out and let the tears flow. I was able to talk to a friend about how I was feeling because he suffers the same and we try to help each other out when we are distressed. My heart felt like it was pounding through my chest and I felt breathless. I was at home on my own and I didn’t know what to do with myself. Thankfully my cat knew how I was feeling and he sat beside me. He knows when I’m having a bad day. He doesn’t leave my side. Animals are not just animals, you know. Sometimes I feel they care and understand more than the human race does.
I am pleased to say I managed to work my way through the day and night. The rest of the week was a bit of a struggle. Not just mentally, but physically too. I was trying to get my head straight and to focus on what I have in my life and how I was going to push the anxiety monster to the back of my mind. It wasn’t easy. I was exhausted from feeling ill and I was exhausted from trying to shake all the bad thoughts I had from my head. I am still suffering from my cold, however I feel like I’m coming to the end of it. I managed to drag myself out of bed on a cold, wet, Sunday morning and do my bodyweight exercises. I still felt like I needed another three hours sleep, but I got up and I did it! It’s amazing what a good workout can do for for the mind, body and soul. I felt so energised! I felt great! I could see improvement! Plus it really helps when you have great music to work out too.
I hope this helps for anyone who has / are suffering with anxiety at the moment. Nobody knows how it really feels unless you have been in that position. I know I felt like I was at my deepest, darkest depths last week. Today I feel on top of the world! Personally I find my anxiety rears its ugly head when I least expect it. I just wanted to say to all of you out there that you are not alone. There are people out there who understand and want to help. I just wanted to say from my own experience, at the time it feels like there is no way out or light at the end of the tunnel, but I know whether it be a day or a few days later, all will be better and I will be back to my happy place.
Much love,
Platinum-blue.
What if my world, what I see and experience LIVE, in the NOW, is really just a reflection of my world. A projection of my mood, emotions. I know it can seem far fetched for some but think about it.
We all see things differently, subjectivity is the key-word. Sop there has to be a driver to our common differences. A driver that gets one to understand a sentence in a way, and causes another individual to understand it another way.
If this is true (and I'm not saying it is), what if we create our own bad and good days. What if by just assuming "it's a shitty day", you just make it happen. Then going through your day, instead of focusing on what matters, you focus and see all that's wrong (stuff that you wouldn't normally care about). Then in this way, you lowered your mood, mind state, and this, just because you noticed negative elements that 1/ might not even be negative or 2/ you might see every day but don't latch onto.
But hey, I'm 19 and don't know shit about life, so this is wisdom-free, and just a bit out of the box!
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@reddutopia I don't mind your comments, we are all free to speak our minds. It's good that you can express yourself this way. Anxiety is one of the worst feelings in the world. So many people say 'oh, it's just a bad day' but it's much more than that. I probably would have thought the same thing if I was your age because back then I never knew what anxiety was or what it felt like. Really appreciate you reading my post and I really thank you for your comments. :-)
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i really like your post and i enjoy it very with all post 👍
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@jhon-rumbya Thank you :-) x
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Animals really do seem to understand better than humans. I have two cats who I truly consider to be my therapy animals. Any time I am having a bad anxiety day they try their hardest to let me know they care and that it is all okay.
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Thanks for sharing @platinum-blue!
Days like these can be really hard, and you already making huge steps forward by acknowledging and sharing your experience.
I have learned that we shouldn't be too hard on ourselves, but rather go an extra mile with being loving and supporting in these moments.
I just wrote a post about a glimpse of my experience with anxiety and depression and few things that helped me through. if you feel like checking it out, it's below :)
Hey @stevenalexander! Thanks for sharing this.
Please, don't be sorry for how you feel. The people who love you will stick around and support you always.
In a society that too often throw at us unrealistic standards of happiness, trust me when I say that being yourself and acknowledging your pain it's a courageous act.
I just wrote a post about a glimpse of my experience with anxiety and depression, don't know if it can help but if you want to check it out below :)
Looking forward to read more of you. Thanks!
https://steemit.com/selflove/@kimlucy/late-night-thoughts-2-or-how-i-shaped-my-relationship-with-anxiety-and-depression
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