Happy Halloween and Happy Birthday To Me~

Hello, friends!
Sorry it's been nearly two weeks since I've posted. It's been a very consuming October. But here I am for one of the most important days of the year: Halloween.
I was born exactly 9, 125 days ago on this day. What a journey it's been.

As you can see, I picked a song very meaningful for those of us who get melancholic during our birthdays. I'm on top of the world on this particular one, but still. It can be a lame day. It's easy to convince yourself it's too late and everything is fucked and your dreams are dead unachievable. This song goes out to you if you feel that way, ever. Because nothing could ever be further from the truth. If you say you can't, you make it true. Yes you can, motherfucker.

~ramble incomingggg~

I came to conclusion many years ago: I don't fucking like working with other musicians. They have a way of behaving in a group I dislike very much. Be that as it may, I've spent the last few years trying to work with more musicians. And let me tell you something:

The ones who aren't on fucking drugs are unrepentant flakes. They change plans at the last minute, or they say they're gonna do something and just not call you and it fucking sucks. I didn't think I could create the sort of art on my own, wanted one or two fellas who could follow my compositions. Perhaps it's co-dependency.

Now, look, jamming with fellow musicians is all well and good. It's just.. I've done years of that. And I'm trying to create more...seriously and disciplined.
Sooo, it would appear it will be a solitary pursuit for now.

Anywho, that's sort of why I've been so scarce. I've been trying to get people to come to the studio but they never do and it's been making me quite sad. But now that it's such a special day, I've come to a new conclusion:

Fuck it. I shouldn't need anyone else to complete my compositions. So, I'm hoping this autumn to produce many, many demos, with lyrics and advance my art as much as possible on my own and hopefully meet my Krist and Paul soon, if I haven't already.

X~Mas is right around the corner :3 And this means better equipment. I seem to be getting quite good at producing, the track is a testament of that. But once I get better soundcards and newer instruments, the universe in the limit. So excited to make my first album.

Thank you to all of you who have stuck with me over the last 8 months. It's nearly been a year. How exciting~
I look very forward to the future with all of you.
And I intend to be more present. Thank you for understanding.
Love you guys/gals/themz~~~

~ C.K.M.
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