Homelessness Sucks

In a homeless shelter, you find all kinds of drugs and people trying to escape their broken families, or families that want to escape from broken people.  You find kids anywhere from 18 who are lost with who they are, to people that are 70 or older looking for a place to live, and even a place to call home where they are going to die.  I hate homeless shelters, because they make it seem as though they care so much about you, but it's just like politics.  They count the homeless by simply counting the people who are in homeless shelters while there are numerous people still in the streets.  It's just that homelessness, was in my belief created by people, not really wanting to help people get out of homelessness, rather than keep them there, and keep them in a most certain down-grade of lifestyles that range from people truly inspired to get out of homelessness, to people that are lifers who are just trapped in the dogma of their own choices.

In a homeless shelter, I'm sure diseases range from mental health all the way down to aids, and other diseases.  Although mental health is common - it is my belief that mental health is/can be created through certain circumstances.  Most people have an awful story to tell, and it's sad to hear the truth from all these people.  What there stories are, what they've lived through and what in their eyes landed them in these situations.  The stories range from not being paid correctly, and not able to get justice to drugs and violence that led them here.  Some people even have stories of rape in their background that have never been justified and they have been pushed into drugs, pushed into prostitution and worse things.  And, for some - meth amphetamines brought them into being homeless simply because their lifestyle choice of being on that drug will make certain that you won't have a life.

I can't believe that people think for an average individual trying to get out of debt and out of poverty think that homeless shelters are the answer.  Sure, you have to be thankful for what you do have... and, I'm not saying that it's not a roof over your head, but hear me out for a minute.

While there are people ranging from people paying child support, having a steady income and getting that income taken away at the same time for rent, that is beyond reasonable to say that it is helping these people to live, it's more or less keeping people locked into the state of bliss where if you worked a 40 hour work week, and paid your bills for your roof over your head, after child support and needing to buy certain other things just to live, you're back to being broke each week and each month after month, you're still scraping by to get out of debt.  So, what's the answer here?  Why don't these counties care about the homelessness that it sort of creates?  In some people's circumstances, they are stuck in the life forever it seems, and there are people that get comfortable in that lifestyle, but I for one, cannot get comfortable in this lifestyle... I want to get out.  I want a home.  There are too many things that bother me in this place to where it feels like my head is spinning around trying to figure it out, and trying to gain more work so that I might even get a chance to leave.  I am working on growing a business and getting a business started doing lawn-care and handyman services, but I simply can't afford the say to say struggle that life is still throwing my way.

They have “Estimates” of the number of people experiencing homelessness are calculated by factoring in study-based estimates of those who are living truly homeless without a roof, living temporarily with friends or family, and in detoxification centers and homeless shelters. 

This information on homelessness you can find here:  http://mnhomeless.org/minnesota-homeless-study/homelessness-in-minnesota.php#1-3457-g

Never the less, what bothers me is that people are into drugs and alcohol, and can't just feel as though you can breathe without being surrounded by the toxic lifestyle that surrounds you daily.  You have people that have no other motivation in life other than to harm yours in whatever way that you can, and basically have to watch your shoes while you sleep.  You never get appropriate sleep, and can't even begin to sleep a regular schedule, and yet you are supposed to go out there and get a job while physiologically you feel ruined.  Your body aches from pain, and your emotional states aren't normal, and they call what you have depression.  This bothers me, when it's not a depressed mind-state that your brain is malfunctioning rather, I feel, it is your world around you that is malfunctioning.  The environments are sick.  People will throw garbage on your bed, do things to cause you to be sick, and even steal from you making it a horrible place to even want to be.  Sometimes it's although actually living on the streets would be better than living in a homeless shelter.  Just too many archaic things that make living in this kind of lifestyle unlivable and unconscionable.  

I know there are real people that want to help the homeless people, but there are other perks to running a shelter that go unnoticed, and unclaimed.  They get a check from the government to run a business just like that of a church, and yet, there are people who are taking donations home for themselves before they ever land in the homeless hands.  It's a most certain corruption of the whole system where the people are most definitely getting perks of working at a homeless shelter.  They don't claim those things, and don't have to - I guess, and no one sees the innumerable things that these people will take from the homeless as well.  I think there are drugs that are also bought from staff to the defense that they are no better than the homeless people and are just playing a role where they get to run the shit show they run while stealing and doing drugs the same way that some of the homeless people are.  This is where it gets more than certainly fraudulent.  

Instead of giving people a handout to help there lives in a way that could change people's lives, I can see why this isn't done as much, when there are people that are homeless that would just take that money and use it for drugs, or use it in other ways that aren't any better than using it for drugs, but for where I'm concerned, and I know there are a few others, who would use that money to turn their life circumstances around.  They would get a car, buy things that would help them make more money, and move out of the life of being homeless forever.  No one wants to be in these situations and while there are people at homeless shelters that will write you up for having a drink of pop in your room, while letting other people have soda and other things in their rooms and even notice it, and say and do nothing.  It's the rules that bother people and make people feel as though they aren't living their own lives anymore, rather just some other way of life that isn't allowed the same freedom as though you are living your own life.

I wouldn't be here if I was just paid correctly, so my personal struggle was finding justice, which is why I started studying organized harassment and things like this, where I was feeling like a target for the things that I now knew was happening to me, and it didn't matter to me or the people that I loved as much as it mattered to me.  I wanted to be there, and I wanted to live differently, and I still am not allowed that chance.  When justice comes, it comes to late, as though there is any justice that brings true liberty from the things that I've gone through.  And, I've gone through a lot more than people could ever see.  They must just see someone that brought this on themselves when they look at me, and I know that it's not.  Sometimes, that is the whole goal of being a targeted individual, is just to cause that person to become homeless.  It gives the people running homeless shelters an incentive to hurt people, and crisis actors an incentive to do more damage in the lives of others - not to mention, thanks to our federal government, crisis acting and psychological warfare is brought onto people within this country simply for having certain beliefs, knowing a thing or two, and people are ruining justice everywhere when it all comes down to money.  Money is not, and should never be the thing that allows a people to get justice.  Because people are dying in those lifestyles, aggravated and pushed into drugs and pushed into living a most certain way, that they wouldn't otherwise be choosing to live, and nor would they be going through the motions if they weren't ever targeted individuals.  But, people can most certainly look the other way whenever they want to.  And, they do.  No one cares about the homeless!  No one comes to see their own family who are homeless, and no one simply cares that they are homeless based on reasons that they don't understand.  They can blame drug use, they can blame cigarette's, they can blame lifestyle choices and tell you that it's something that you've done to yourself all that they want, but this isn't the truth.  Not for some people!  And, not for the victims of rape, or the victims of being targeted in America.  These people want justice!  They deserve justice!  Can't find justice however, because money matters more than justice does, and money matters these days more than people do.

The whole system around money revolves around that fact of money.  This is why people get into robbing people, robbing banks, and doing most certain crimes that get them into trouble.  But, while you are doing things to be a criminal, there are other people, even police who are taking part in crimes over you that you aren't even aware of.  Crimes with technology and crimes with hacking tools and the power to read your everything that you ever do.  Meta data allows people to be followed, set up and discarded in the law as though they are just some more meat for their own potatoes.  They don't care about you if you are pushed, and they proceed with incentives to make sure people are aggravated into the lifestyle that they choose to live.  It's just that people are too stupid to see these things.  People aren't looking in the right places to get their news, people aren't aware of the news that is there, and people simply don't know the truth about what is going on here.  The fact is that homelessness for many is planned, while others are created through drugs.  

Most people don't think however that the influx of drugs can even be controlled, when it can be.  Drug dealers in Chicago for an example knew that there was no way someone was making all this cocaine in their houses.  It was being brought to them, and while people get hooked into a drug of choice - being that it's a cocaine or a meth amphetamine drug, people are doing drugs all over the place and are getting hooked.  The whole purpose of these drugs was created to control people, and little do people know, but their own C.I.A. and government officials came up with a great plan to rob the people blindly by playing on their desires.  Give a person something that they love, or create a love out of something and you can create a criminal and the fluctuation of more people can be locked away, where the incentives are in favor of making drugs, creating druggies, and getting stupid people to piss their lives away, to create more criminals, and more people to control.  The objective of government in these cases was not to just trick people into sting operations, but to also trick them into a lifestyle that they can't get out of.  And, it's the incentives of cops to get more people locked up, and to get more people in jails because the more people in jails that they can get - the more money they get funding for.  

Same goes with homeless shelters I believe, and it is more like a step right before going to jails or other criminal facilities where the incentives are the same.  The more homeless people they can get in their doors, the more money the counties pay them, and the more money they make.  It's a game!  And, I don't think that there are genuine people that want to get you out of these predicaments when there are people really trying to get out of community living, the lifestyle of certain drugs, and the lifestyle of being locked into a system, that doesn't want to "help" you rather than it wants to destroy your reputation, or your character.   Character assassinations happen all the time, and most people think that these things are just happening because the world is rotten.  They aren't happening because the world is rotten, rather there is a beautiful life out there for people and people aren't being told the truth about their own legal system in the fact that it runs an incentive to create homeless people, it creates an incentive to create druggies, criminals and create people to go in and out of the lifestyle of jails and prisons.  The more people they can control, the better it becomes for the people running these lies, and the more that these people can take home and not claim on their taxes.  It's free money, both created from a fucked up scenario of government, and from the federal government and the people that take the system as though it's doing people a huge service to call these people.

Before I was ever in a jail, I was trying to tell my own mom that they are going to run the mill over on me, and it didn't seem to matter to her.  I forgot that I watched all these things that would happen to me by studying the things that I was, and then I didn't want to believe that it was happening to me verbatim how these videos would say it would happen.  They would make sure that you wouldn't get your money.  They would make sure that you couldn't find a job, and nearly apply everywhere before finding someone that is willing to give you a chance.  They would even create an economic crisis in your life.  They might even crash into your cars, or make sure that you are fighting not only the economic factors, but environmental factors as well.  They would place parasites into your environment, and do things to make sure that you knew that they were there, but would also, make sure that you feared that no one would ever listen to you.  They would target you in other ways as well.  Make you look as though you've eroded.  Make you look crazy because with all these things that can happen, it most certainly will make a person crazy.  If you don't know the things that are going on, you could even flip, and you wouldn't be able to tell that you were going to even snap - but nevertheless snap.  

You see, I forgot that I was the one that was watching this stuff, and I was the one that had things figured out for once in my life, so I was stupid to think that my own family, friends and other people were paying attention to the things that I was.  But, I remember sitting there, thinning out, and in troubling times of my life, thinking that I knew what was going on.  I thought, I need to get this out to the public so that people knew this kind of thing was possible.  It's an effortless way to make money on the suffering of others, and your federal government loves it.  Not all the people, but enough people that run with the evil that is most prevailing in times like these of our lives.  It's most certain to me that I was being treated just like those people that were being murdered.  In the end, these people were killed by police, or otherwise killed by a mafia of some kind of thuggery that was taking over the criminal justice system.  People calling out for help from their government here and there, and they don't want people calling out all over the place, so they run their little schemes over people here and there, and just not everywhere all at once.  But, it's starting to get really fucked up in the world, and Christians and Conspiracy Theorists know that something is wrong with the way that things are being run in their world.  We aren't allowed to freedom, justice, liberty or the pursuit of happiness.  We aren't allowed our own money for crying out loud, and when we are fucked over by a people, we aren't able to find justice in that we need to find someone who can represent us.  It's the oldest trick in the book of a tyrannical system in favor of its deceptions.  It's a powerful play where this is where God comes in play.  Because this is what the Bible talked about when bad things happen to good people, where they were going to get back the things that happened to them.

The fact is however you want to look at it, is that homelessness, like jails and criminals are much created.  They are created by the hate that spreads like wildfire for a people that don't know why certain things are happening to them, and when they figure it out, it'll be too late.  No one will believe you, have faith in you, and no one will come around you because your struggles are too innumerable, and most people will tell you - I can't handle your problems on top of my own.  I can't agree with you that your government is willing to target people, even though it's been discovered online, and by your own congress, and certain people within the government - these truths are not being brought to your attention for fear that these people would understand a whole lot better than they do today.  They don't want that.  And, it's not a part of their agendas.  They want top hide what they are doing, to stay out of jails and to stay out of trouble from ever being discovered as a scam artist like Obama was running the scandalous things that he was doing in the background of telling great speeches.  He is a tyrant and he is a liar to the American people, and there was and is targeting of people that know a thing or two about the truth.

If you are a targeted person, and feel that your life has been in danger, one of the best things that you can do, is study, and write down everything that you study to protect yourself from tyranny.  Take your life out of drugs, don't ever be violent and go against the laws, and just be of sober mind and spirit and tell the people that you aren't depressed.  Tell the people that you will never kill yourself, or ever hurt someone ever.  Say your prayers and stomp it out, because the one thing that can happen will most certainly happen if you can't tell these people that you are of sound mind and body, and that you aren't on drugs, and that you are doing what you can to change things around for everyone.  IT doesn't matter where you are in life, because I believe in the American people.  I believe in the concerns that are many, and I believe in the people that were creating a lot of content in videos and writings to tell the American people something that was on their minds.  I believe that people are just concerned and have every right to feel concerned.  And, let me tell you why...  It's because I don't believe that a people are trying to make money on YouTube, rather they are using YouTube as an outlet to spread information.  I don't think people are writing on Steemit to make money, rather they are trying to get information out to the public.  I don't think the boys on the tracks weren't murdered by the Clintons for finding out about their cocaine smuggling operations, and I don't think that people will ever get the truth until we are all spreading the truth about what is happening in our lives.

And, let me tell you, I haven't always been a good person.  I'm a good person now, but I wasn't always a good person.  I have a history that is behind me where I've been molested and treated like shit by many people.  It made me bitter and mean, and made me become someone that I didn't like at all.  I hated myself!  I hated what I've become, and I wanted to learn and study why things were happening to me.  But, no one believed me, and no one could see the same things that I was seeing.  No one even thought that my experience with these things mattered.  They saw someone that did this all to himself.  Though, yeah, I believe God is in control of certain things of this world, I don't believe he is in control of the bad that people are doing, or willing to do.  He can't!  He gave people a free will and knows what people are going to choose to do before they even choose it, but - He single evenhandedly, can't stop people from doing the bad things that they are willing to do.  He can only be there for people who admit their sins and ask forgiveness for their sins.  He knows that you've been hurting, and he knows that you're broken in your faith.  I believe that God wants to step into your life and make sure that you aren't going to follow in this worlds footsteps, rather He can fix you from the inside out.  If you ask, I don't think that there is anything impossible to God, even healing your actual heart, or healing your cancer or healing a nation.  I don't think however that even people asking for the impossible, or impractical things even believe in God in these ways, so I believe that those things make a thing impossible.  What makes a thing possible, is if you ask something of the Lord that can be made possible, through faith.  If you haven't got the faith of a mustard seed, you haven't got enough faith.  But, all you need is that small crumb of faith, and ask God in the right ways, and I don't think there is anything that God can't do for His people, so long as it is His will.  Ask to align your heart with His heart, and see what can be done.  He can heal you, and He can save you, and can show you the truth if you're willing to look for it.  He can even bring you to it.  But, He cannot do that without your willingness to proceed with faith in Him.

I believe that every person on earth is worth much more than they are getting.  I believe that people are hurting and that they are sometimes creating those hurts, and sometimes it's other people creating those hurts.  I don't think you can stop other people from hurting you, because some people are willing to go to hell, and some people are so hurtful in themselves that they are hurting themselves.  Forgive them!  They don't know what they are doing.  But, I believe that people everywhere in American life and all over the world want to change, and want to see a vision that they've had come true.  I believe that you can do those things.  When no one else might have faith in you, just remember these words.  I do!  I believe in you!  Because sometimes that's all that I ever needed to hear, and couldn't hear it in truth from anyone.  Nor, did I feel it when someone would say it to me, and turn around and tell me some thing that was happening to me was all my fault.  It's as though faith was broken, and some people could say the words, but couldn't say them in truth, and faith was broken.  When faith is broken, the thing itself is broken too, and trust me, you can feel when people are broken in their faith in you, or in God to fix a part of your life.  I felt broken every time that I knew that I wasn't believed in, and that no one wanted to hear anything from me simply because they thought that I couldn't do anything better than what they had done in their life.  And, it isn't true.  I know that I'm worth more than being homeless, and I'm worth more than this life that has been giving me circumstantial and economic failures, and environmental issues.  I know that it's not my fault.  And, so I know that whatever pain you might feel, it isn't yours!  Let it go!  Let it go!  Let it GO!

You are worth more than that pain in your life, and just know that whatever your wish is right now, and whatever good that you are trying to do, I believe in you.  Because, no one could tell me that when I needed to hear it, so I say it all the time in my blogs.

Just like, I wished that somehow, someone could help me to share my world in a much more beautiful way than we ever have before.  Can we do that here?  Can we start something beautiful here?  Can we start today?  Right now?  I'm so sick of the internet the way it is, I'm sick of fake people all doing bad things with their lives and bodies, and I'm sick to my heart about shit that feels as though it will never go away.  I want more for a nation, and a people, and a whole world than what I see happening, and I still believe that it's all possible.  I don't care how much hurt it throws in my way, I believe in you, and I believe in changes.  A change is going to come!  Today!  Now!  Right now!  And, it's happening already.

I believe in you.