Yesterday I wrote a post explaining why I've been so absent lately. Long story short I'm in a rut caused by the loss of my best friend, lover and confidant. It's been kind of shitty lately.
The response I got from the STEEM community in nothing short of humbling.. With all sorts of users new and old banding together to show me support and lend me strength which I desperately need right now. The share of stories and experience as well as home remedies for depression has in fact helped me be a little less in the dumps today. I owe everyone thanks.
Believe it or not I really don't have a large social circle "in real life". Over the years my inability to maintain communications and friendships have left me with maybe half a dozen people I consider true friends. However, this is all changed now.. The amount of people that commented and tried to cheer me up was staggering. Sure I might not have many "real life" friends but I certainly have friends here on STEEM. Thank you again to everyone who helped me through yesterday. May seem a bit odd to say but the show of love from this community is probably one of the highlights in my recent past weeks. You all rock and are awesome.
I'm working on getting another post done here today that will serve as a vessel to deliver a new Wordpress / Woocommerce plugin allowing SBD or STEEM withdrawals. Also will be trying to get a witness update done after that.. I realize I'm a day (or more) behind on things and hopefully I can keep my head out of the muck and get some things done today.
Thank You All For Being There For Me
Vote @klye for Witness!
( Currently Holding Down Rank #21 ... W00T!)https://steemit.com/~witnesses
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Thank you for your votes, the opportunity and support!
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ROFL. Thank you for the laugh.
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Thank you for being such a solid cornerstone of the community!
You inspire me to draw more!
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Glad I could be of use to someone!
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Man don't sell yourself short! You're more than just a master of dick pics, you're a fucking Witness my friend. That takes serious balls. I tried to give it a go thinking hey, I can support the blockchain and maybe gain a steem or two, right? WRONG.
This is what it looks like trying to be a witness, until it started using 6 gigs of memory and many gigs of internet bandwith downloading all those blocks... fail.
I'm gonna stick to drawing dick pics myself. Other stuff too.
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You need to have at minimum 8GB ram and a shit ton of bandwidth. :/
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That's hilarious!
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The Internet is real life. There is only real life and afk real life.
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all my friends live in this magic box
They check on me more than family! Just sayin'
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You have a valid point..!
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I like UAFK. [U]nfortunately [A]way [F]rom [K]eyboard.
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Sorry to hear you've been having a rough time recently. Depression is a bitch, and unless you've experienced it for yourself, hard for others to really comprehend. Add in real-life problem and the stress can be debilitating. I've been a bit absent from Steem just recently too for various real-life issues that needed dealing with.
But on a more positive note, it's good to see you back again Klye. Your posts and conversations always brighten up my day. Your combination of humour and offensive drawings is unmatched in making me chuckle!
Keep up the good work, and stay strong! You have many friends here who care about you and are happy to help if you need us!
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"Your combination of humour and offensive drawings is unmatched" this makes me happy.
Thanks movievertigo. I have been struggling with the depression a while now.. It's certainly debilitating at the moment though.
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So glad you're feeling better! I think this community of friends can be as real as any in life :) And you are hugely important to it!
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I still feel like I've been tossed through a damn blender.. But today is slightly less crap than yesterday.
Not sure if on an upswing or just feeding off the support found here on STEEM.. But it certainly beats wanting to off myself that's for damn sure. Stay Schwifty Dreemit. :D
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^ all time favorite cartoon
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You are a man of fine taste. Probably the best animated bit I've seen in the past half decade.
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How are you doing today sweetie? @son-of-satire challenged me to outcheese his cheesy meme for the new contest, so if you're feeling bummed you should join us in our silliness :)
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This cracks me up, and now my four year old nephew keeps saying Pway schwiffy again"probably heard it twenty times now LOL ;)
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It's good to see you seem a bit brighter:
I think this is one of the problems of the modern world. People are so mobile that your old friends tend to spread out across the globe.
It is also much harder to make really deep lasting friendships when you become an adult for similar reasons - people are changing jobs and moving around or being made redundant all the time.
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Yep, Between the friends I lost to moves, drugs and accidents my herd be pretty damn thin now.
Oh well, I do have the STEEM herd now to be a part of. Good enough for me.
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I didn't know that (I have missed the former post).
Those are always hard times in life! On the other hand, this also means more time to spend with others. Let's try to find some positive sides to overcome to bad moments!
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Eh.. I wish it was just as easy as drop in a replacement and go man.. It's not. :/
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It is not. Definitely. The "utility" (cannot find better word at the time I write, sorry) is not the same.
Courage!
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That dik picture reminded me of tippy LOL don't ask why!
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... I need to get my ass in gear on that
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No worries bro. That one is the one that makes us SteemIt Trillionairs!
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That dic pic though!
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lol. Right? I damn near spit my drink out onto the screen when I saw it...
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Laughter is good medicine. I also recently lost a girl, been having a hard time moving on.
Anyway, see you on around. :)
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Sorry to hear man.. Women can be a great compliment or chaos to ones life.
Take er easy captain.
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steemiiiiiiiiit!
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My virtual friends are awesome. <3
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Gooble gobble gooble gobble...
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One of us!
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One of us!
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It was the dick clipart and Alex Armstrong wasn't it? LOL
Glad you're having a better day. I can count all of my "real life" friends on one hand...and I don't need all my fingers. But I am closer to many of my online friends than to some of my own family. You're in good company, @klye - don't hesitate to reach out.
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Thanks for the relentless support and compassion merej99. <3
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Always here my friend. Glad to hear you are doing better!
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<3 Thanks Lydon.Sipe :)
It's a bit better today.. Not sure if just a temporary boost in mind or getting out the gutter.. We shall see.
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I'm glad your feeling better; I'm feeling better too. There sure are many people who are supportive - it is nice.
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Been a bit of a rough day today.. Hopefully it improves.
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It is tough I know sometimes. I wish you well.
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Is steem.global coming back?
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Yeah, I just realized the damn server was down. I'll try and get it back up here shortly. Sorry for the service interruption.
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You ARE the best, klye!!
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I try sometimes. I'm just moving funds around to get it back up and going and will make a post when it's back up and running for everyone.
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🤖
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lol. Just shows up as a box to me. ?!
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It's a little robot which represents my friendship. Internet friends are like robot friends, but friends none the less. 🤖
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Glad to hear your doing better.
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Bit of an upswing. Night is always the worst for me.
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At least it's never nighttime here on steemit, there are always friends online. Keep writing, and doing art.
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Heh, Yeah.. I guess so.
Mind wanders to much at night and the loneliness kicks in when the sun goes down.
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Hey @klye. I missed your last post but I hope you're feeling at least a little better today.
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Seemingly a bit better today. Still not feeling my normal self by any means but perhaps this is the start to rebalancing my mind and getting back into the groove.
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Tomorrow is always brighter, just get through today to get there. Hang in there kyle
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Thanks Len. <3
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we Kiwis have to look after our friendly canucks.
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I consider my Steem friends as real friends and also closest friend. My most meaningful thing I do is writing my thoughts on this blockchain. If someone doesn't read me on Steem then I don't value them as much as those who read me. I'm glad to see you getting cheered up!
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I am learning too now that geographical location doesn't really matter when it comes to buddies.
Thanks for being there for me dude. <3
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I took a week off to play and just saw your post. I wish I could cook for you and be your Mom, give you lots of hugs! You'll have to be your own Mom, Be kind to yourself, take some walks, sleep regularly and drink lots of water...I know all about depression, been walking with it for most of my life, I made it my friend, it tells me what I need to do to be healthy.
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You are a damn good woman reddust. Certainly wish my own mother was as supportive as you have been to me. I don't know if I have the words in my vocabulary to say how grateful I am.
It's been hard today. I didn't even sleep last night, I couldn't. :/
Thank you.
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I have a trick taught to me by one of my meditation teachers when I couldn't sleep. When you meditate on breath and body sensation the brain does not tell the body it needs sleep. We don't need as much sleep if we meditate 4 or more hours a day and I was doing 4 hour sits daily when I'd hit samadhi. Being a newbie and all, I'd freak myself out laying in bed all night wide awake. I was so worried I wouldn't have enough energy to sit all day long and get up in time 4am to wake everyone else up! I worried my self sick.
I was a worrywart, left that behind my 3rd retreat, and no talking at those retreats, noble silence, I love to talk! Didn't dump that habit darn it!
But anyways, this is the trick.
When you go to sleep know it's okay not to sleep, don't worry about that.
Relax your body!
It's the body that needs to rest.
The mind can only focus on one thing at a time and keeping your attention on physical sensations cuts off the food that feeds flooding thoughts and emotions.
Focus your attention on the palms of your hands and or the bottom of your feet.
Are they hot or cold, just feel that...don't react, just feel the sensation
Is there an itch or other sensation in those areas? Feel the sensation as hot, cold, hard, soft, sharp, and so on. You can say the feelings in your mind in the beginning if you are having a hard time connecting to your body. Most of us do that suffer depression. This technique will help ground you.
You can also use this technique walking.
Don't worry yourself sick my friend (hugs) just do what you can and let the other stuff out of your control go.
Edit...you can do this all night long and be able to function the next day...you will have to pull your attention back to sensation hundreds of times during the night. It'll keep your mind busy and pull the negative energy out of you body (that's my guess on how this technique works). Ones you've mastered the technique it's very relaxing for the body, remember keep the body relaxed!
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It's my mind I cannot shut down sadly. Between my complete inability to relax lately coupled with the fact my mind is constantly attacking itself with horrible thoughts it makes for long night. I've seen the sunrise 2 times in a row so far. I'm not even sure I've slept more than an hour the past few days.
In manic spells I don't sleep because I have so much energy./. But what this is currently is nothing short of torture.. Worst part is, it's myself vs myself. :/
Thanks for sharing your tip. I'll try it out whenever I can get my damn mind under control. I feel like I'm trapped in a prison.. And it's me.
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You can't control the mind, but you can let it go...like letting a horse run itself out and then the horse is trainable.
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I understand, I used to be exactly in the same place you are....but you can let this go, it takes practice, strong determination. You've come so far, this is just another step on your journey
You will never be able to stop feeling, but you can change your reaction to your feelings❤
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Wish it was that easy. Without something to knock my ass out I am literally incapable of stopping my damn mind from wandering to the worst parts within itself.
Wish I could just shut this bastard off and not have to think or feel anymore.
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Good to see you on a more even keel!
People behind the screen are just as real as anyone else... these days, those we have a lot in common with tend to be scattered around the globe, so thankfully we have this web to reach out across.
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Eh, I didn't sleep last night really and had a bit of a mental break.. Not sure if I'm feeling better or worse at this point.
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Go KLYE!
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