The reality of Mexis..

For everything I've done or accomplished in the last 5 years completely gone stay a few things like my car that doesn't run anymore because of the accident I got in.. Anyways enough of trivial things like reliable transportation..I've not been an opioid addict for very long but I can attest to the power and shear devastation of the little blue anhilators..I've been in the world of controlled substances for a number of years,not a habit I'm proud of by any means just the reality of my life..I've done it all and by it all I mean all, I don't know I guess you could say I've always avoided opioids because of the toll it took on my father and eventually was his demise, so for sake of not going down that same road I managed to avoid them..Until about a year ago , I was in another argument with my current girlfriend and this time we decided to separate for good ..I was fine with that , and actually making some progress in other avenues in my life until I break weak and accept her phone calls, and just like that I'm back in it face first.. Except this she had a surprise for me, Heroin the tar stuff, she's like yeah just smoke a little with me you'll be fine it's not like you'll be addicted after a hit..She was right it wasn't the first hit it was every hit after that...The euphoria was second to none and the all around usage was very easy to accommodate, foil lighter tooter ..And managing everything in life to seem to be easy on it as well, fast forward a month the ease of aquiring "H" became increasingly difficult, but the ship had sailed I had to have it like I physically had to use it or the withdrawal I would experience was unbearable, so the alternative at the time was Mexis..And so here I am blowing it because I can't get off these FUCKING pills..