Thanks! But I'm by no means healthy, I'm just healthier than I've ever been. This is going to be a lifelong process. I catch myself falling into spirals and immediately pull myself out before I fall too far, as with anything you get better with practice. A big part of the process was literally resetting everything. No drugs, no junk food, full sleep, exercise daily, no distractions or bad habits, and searching patiently with what I was left with, which was me. Center myself then ask the tough questions like wtf do I want to do with my time, why are my reactions so irrational, why do I do the things I do, etc. It's almost like fapping before making relationship decisions. From there you identify your values and subsequent identity and build off of a platform of truth, YOUR truth. It's probably the hardest thing I've ever done, but I'm so glad I took the time off.

The last bits of it for me are meditation and mindfulness, I suck at both, but again need to practice to focus on living in the moment and enjoying the journey, not so much ignoring what's important to reach some arbitrary goal.

I hope you find inner peace, I commend you on all the progress you made, it's no easy feat.