A Diary of a Suicidal Man

I am a man who may or may not be justified in my thinking... I want to document what my life has been like before i do pass on to the next 'level'... If indeed that is what awaits us...
I want it known i am not a bad man. Everything i have done has been for my family, children and wife. Unfortunately that may not be enough in this reality...
Over the next week or two i shall post excerpts from my life and hope to explain why perhaps i may be perceived as a demon... and certainly why i feel i am not...
I hope you forgive my writing skills ( i'm no writer ) and just look at what i may be trying to say.