I've always been more of an optimist, someone who looks to the sky and see brightness even when its really cloudy. I had to learn the optimism creed after loosing Dad and Karena, the only family I grew to know.

I just finished my NYSC in Minna, spontaneous me, I wanted to visit the North. There, I met Idris, the first Nothern guy who was more like me. I am Christian but we share strong values. I think I was falling for him.

I started hanging out with him more, I visited him times and times, in his Lodge. We did some regular routines together.

One night, Idris asked for a sleepover, I nodded excitedly. There is no need for details; at about 2;40 am, after so much struggle and pleadings, I was sitting on my blood and broken virginity. I left his house at 5 am. While walking down the empty street, I wondered as I cried 'If I had to give up my body, I wanted it to be on my own terms'...ofcourse the sky had become dull.

Yes, all I could see was a red blood sky.