I was contemplating if I have the means to basically straighten-up my backbones just to ease most of what I feel inside then I would do it.
My severe scoliosis isn't allowing me to breathe easy now, I feel like I am being hugged tightly and it is just like that really.
My lungs have a lesser capacity which is why when I am trying to sing a hymn when attending online in my church I would run out of air after a couple of syllables and I am not exaggerating because that is what is happening.
No wonder that I would get breathless when I would walk considering that my hemoglobin levels is normal all these past five years. My being breathless had coincided with my backbone getting crooked was the main culprit.
But I heard that it is just not good to get a surgery for the back because of the chance of me getting paralyzed in the process especially with my case where my bones are so soft already plus of course they would definitely put a metal on my backbone which will make me look robotic as the metal will make my back so rigid in the process.
But that surgery would possibly make my breathing so easier I assume. That is why I am missing my former body structure more than ever because at least I am more mobile and agile compared into what I am experiencing right now.
My lungs are not the only ones had gotten squeezed but all my internal organs. That condition now makes me get to feel full faster with the fluids that I intake which is the reason of my breathing difficulties when I am nearing my threshold for my fluid consumption.
That is why I am always trying to remove all my extra fluids at dialysis which causes my blood pressure to get really low, so much so that nurses that are trying to read my BP using a sphygmomanometer because of a very weak pulse. The main reason is of a too much fluid removal which unfortunately I needed because I do not have much room anymore in my body to load-up on extra fluids.
Now I just have to do some utmost discipline with my fluid and food intake that is why in some days like this one I would only eat once a day so that I could get thrifty with my fluid intake so that I could feel better in-between dialysis session days.
