You're welcome.

(As others have probably said, and you know.) If there's no rhyme or reason, then there's no need to be abusive to yourself about it (eg. abusive self-talk. In an frustrated internal tone: "Why can't I just be XXX" "People would be better off without me, etc." I don't know your specific self talk, so I'm just posting general ones.).

And even if there was a rhyme or reason, talking bad to yourself only makes things worse. From experience and research - one of the best things we can do is be kind to ourselves when struggling (have you checked out Kristen Neff? She is a psychologist who created an actionable concept called self-compassion).

Yeah, psychological issues aren't easy to speak about. I share online, and with family and a friend IRL, but not openly.

You're welcome for the response. :-) I really like your videos, even if I don't look around on Steemit, I check in to see your vids.