7 Days meditation Challange [2 years of daily meditation]

in ecotrain •  7 years ago  (edited)

I decided not to partake in this challenge because meditation has been one of the daily things I do, and mapping 7 days of meditation is quite hard for me.

But I just realized that I can share my overall experience of meditating every day for the past two years. From the good parts of doing this and the bad parts.

Yes. Meditating has some bad traits but once you understand them you find out that they aren't really bad at all, it's just the way we perceive them.

The positives


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I was a really damaged person when I look back at what I was two years ago.

Anxiety fear and stress were more than my friends, they were my life extensions and lifestyle before I started working towards a spiritual path of seeking and self-development.

As time passed and I spent more time working on myself I started to see thing differently and from a more calm and peaceful source of being.

The thing is that meditation can bring different things to people because its something personal and is case dependant based on life experience and circumstances.

For me, meditation is to some extent a life saver, or in other words saving me from a life that was filled with pain and suffering.

I don't regret one moment of it.

A stronger mind, a stronger body and a stronger sense of being. I haven't stepped foot in a hospital for the past two years.

I can't really point out every benefit but it goes beyond pinpointing random stuff I've found. Mainly because through meditating, I've learned never to look back on the past. Or at least only to do so if there is a need to.

The Negative Effects


I've endured so much trauma from releasing many things. I've always tried to tell people that our fears, pain and suffering are stored in our bodies. When we meditate and start cleaning our mind and body for extended periods of time, these things start to surface and we begin reliving these states as they get cleaned.

So to some extent, I've relived most of the biggest fears and pains I had ever come across in my path.

There were days where my ego would stop to function and it felt as there was no meaning to life, as it was taking a deep cleansing dive.

There were days where my emotions would vanish, leaving me as an empty husk walking the streets with no purpose other than to eat and breathe.

There were moments where I wanted to commit suicide because my fears were out to play.

But out of all the negative experiences I've gone through, I came to profound realizations and new sources of happiness, a new way of seeing people and a new hope for life.

But that was my path to walk, it wasn't easy because I was an awful and damaged person and I didn't even know it.

Overall


Meditation has its levels and it really does depend on how deep one decides to dig. The farther one goes the stranger it gets.

Most people can't experience what I've gone through because they can always decide to stop doing it on the first bump. I wasn't that kind of a person back then, not because I wouldn't do it the nice way, but rather because my over-inflated ego was too curious to get answers.

I don't regret anything because I cant see myself going back to the man I was.

Also having a Kundalini explosion midway made it impossible for me to say no.

This is my experience, I share it not to make people fear meditating, neither do I share it to promote it.It is a personal choice. I do it because I can be honest with myself and with you all. Sometimes we sugar coat things and that's why nobody is ever prepared for drastic life changes.

I can write an article that can radiate love to you and I can say all the sweet words I know, but for some people like myself, people that have been damaged by everything on an inner level for their whole live, I't wouldn't help when the trauma surfaces and starts to bleed.

I surely hope I don't dissapoint anyone for being honest. So please, forgive me if I have.

Thanks for reading !

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such a good honest look at the stuff that comes up when we meditate. really appreciate your share. i went to a 2 week meditation course once and the entire time i felt so much anger i thought something was wrong with me.. just realized it was all bubbling up to be seen after so long of not having any space to show itself. that, too, is a part of the All. gratitude for your wholeness and healing that you've found through meditation. sounds like a life saver!

Sometimes our surroundings lack to support our inner freedom, therefore there's a huge emotiona load of junk that gathers up.

Hope you find your source of freedom from within !

Thanks for bringing this awareness to the things that can come up. I was in a sweat lodge one time, and intense emotions often bubble up in a ceremony like that, but this one was super intense. It was all women, and we were moving through some really big shit. When we came out, the fire keeper, who was a man, came to us quietly with tears in his eyes and told us that grandmother spirits surrounded the sweat lodge holding us the entire time. Now whenever I have big shit come up I try to remember that the grandmothers and my spirit guides are always right there for me.

Sorry to hear about the experience :3 I've had many myself where I end up experiencing emotions which weren't even generated by me, rather radiated by others.

Time is a healer , if anything else time will fix any issues.

Honestly I am really grateful for it. It is good to know that I am surrounded in love when hard times come. And we all went in that lodge with the intention of being there for each other, so I was willing to help my sisters through grief. I had some of my own, but I was mostly there to support. It was intense and hard but also powerful and beautiful.

I also meditate for over a year now and I wouldn't ever stop doing it. I started doing it because I was really anxious and I always stressed about everything. I simply wasn't happy to live.
As time passed, meditation has had many benefits for me. The spirituality part is amazing. It feels like I'm more connected to the nature and I always want to get out into a forest or something.
I also became very aware of my emotions and I'm sorta able to control them. I rarely stress about anything and I'm always calm. I manage to control myself in most situations.
But there are indeed some side effects like you've said. While I became a much happier person because of meditation, sometimes there are days where I feel like I have no purpose, like something is missing in my life.
It's hard to explain this feeling but it feels like I'm an empty shell sometimes. I get kinda depressed for a day and it feels really bad.
But other than that, my lifestyle quality is much better than before I started meditating!
Thanks for sharing your experience. I'm always interested about the effects other people feel from meditation!

Lovely to hear your feedback, also lovely to see there are others on the path towards inner freedom and well being.

I wish you all the best in your life my friend.

Love the honesty in this post... we all have different experiences of life and nothing will look the same on 2 different people. One thing that works for somebody also isn't guaranteed to work for others. Thanks for giving an example of how challenging meditation has been for your life!

Thank you 🙏