As per usual, I keep thinking how to create posts that push the edge and create more engagement and are just fun to do.....

Since we're still a sort of smallish community, I thought it might be fun to publicly admit something embarrassing.

I've been admitting embarrassing stuff since 2015 with the release of my book, Un-Crap Your Life. All my darkest sh*t is in that book!

Ok, I'll go first.....it's a REALLY embarrassing one. I think it's in my book already, so I don't really care if people know or not....:

I send stuff in the mail to famous people because I'm grateful for their gifts and I'm someone who admires people sometimes to the point of it being unhealthy.

I've been doing this for years as a way of thanking the person for influencing me or just changing me in some dramatic way.

I'm much better in this regard as I've been working on this weird trait and finding the source of its energy. I'm becoming more of a person I like, instead of glorifying others as much.

Here's a list of some famous people I've sent things to:

I sent Weird Al Yankovic a beautified shoe sole in the mail.

I sent James Altucher a drawing of himself:

And I sent Elon Musk a hand-painted binder and a letter. You can read about the letter I sent to Elon Musk here.

So, what embarrassing thing will you admit today?

(remember, the blockchain doesn't forget)

ps- psychoanalyzing myself a bit: on some level, I experienced some transitory feelings of adoration, longing, etc., since all the recipients were these brilliant, interesting men. I realize this is a bit creepy, and I believe this occurred because I am very bad at real human relationships, and I generally prefer to live by myself without love. I knew from a very early age that I had an intense fear of intimacy, and also a very passionate heart. Trying to resolve these two conflicting aspects of my personality has been a massive source of emotional pain, leading me to believe that love exists mostly inside of one person's mind, and not in reality. I guess I chose fantasy over reality. Maybe one day I will learn how to fuse these two parts, but I have serious doubts since I've chosen to be true to my art over relationships. Ah! Too much information!