Hey Alla, respect for sharing your struggle with all of us. I guess that most people have passed through this kind of weight struggles. Around 3-4 years ago I was overweighed myself and I would like to share here my thoughts.

I realized that when it comes to weigh loss the big problem is “DIET”. It is easy to lose weight with almost any diet; the real deal is to maintain it. Diets are based on restrictions and they are made to work for only a period of time. When people finish the diet, they go back to the old lifestyle and do all the things that were restricted and they usually gain back what they’ve lost. And that’s because the cause of the extra weight was the old lifestyle in the first place.

That’s why diets are the wrong approach, you must attack the root if you want lasting changes! If you don’t change the lifestyle which put those extra kilos, it doesn’t matter what diet you do, you will always get the same results in the long run. You have even proven that to yourself several times.

In my case, I started to change my lifestyle because of healthy concerns. I had more than 20 kg more, my cholesterol was on the sky, I was getting tired even tiding my shoes. I was basically eating anything that taste good (mostly fatty or sugary fast food) and I was making any kind of sport. So, I decided to change my lifestyle. I started to leave fat, sugar and meat off my plate, I started to exercise regularly. After some months I went complete vegan, and it has been the best decision of my life.

I have been living a healthy vegan lifestyle for 2 years now and I’ve never hat weight problems again. I don’t need to count calories anymore, I don’t even use that word much. I can eat as much healthy food as I want and I try to exercise regularly, but I don’t follow any plan or routine. I feel great and I have my perfect weight. A lot of people would say that I am too thin now, but unfortunately, we live in an overweighed society.

I see that you love cooking and baking, which is awesome! but I also see that you use a lot of dairy, eggs, butter, sugar, oil and other unhealthy ingredients, etc. Of course you struggle with weight if you eat like this. You can create almost any dish in a healthier way and you will start to see and feel the different soon. Ex. instead of baking with eggs use bananas, instead of sugar use dates und so on. This products are not only making us fat, they are also making us sick. It's not only about the weight, it is also about the health.

My recommendation to you is to forget completely about DIETS and calories, because after you finish with this new one, you will back where you started, just in the same way you did with those other diets.

If you want permanent changes, then change to a healthier lifestyle and you won’t have to worry about weight ever again.

Cheers
Jose