Self analysis of the knots in my gut, a new type of constraint, much bigger, wider and more ominous than those moments in the life and times we have all experienced -- times when it was up to us individually to crawl back up from the holes we dug for ourselves, or the life experiences perhaps beyond our control that we ultimately overcame, and even thrived better because of them. This is so different.
Today, I need to take deep breaths, like I am suffocating. I have a strong and intuitive feeling of becoming snuffed out, but not when I might choose, and that pisses me off.
I've watched the world close in on us for the past 40 years, so many freedoms and things we took for granted, gone. Like slow bowling frogs, we have lanquished in our hot tubs of complacency and comfort, but now the water is very near the boil.
Then I often think that perhaps we complacent folks deserve what is coming? After all, our tax dollars and our government has supported coups, wars and color revolutions across the globe for the entire lifetime of any of us alive today. And now it is happening to us. (If you don't get that, well, you are also a big part of the problem.)
Well, maybe it is a good thing after all that we get to experience what we have been doing to "the others" for our entire lives. Finally understanding the knots in their guts.