Having to do not much to collect myself. Finding how impacted you've been through a trying situation in life can be painstaking work. The gruelling grind never got me grim, though it seemed bleak. It can slow ya down some, get ya down some maybe. Although glad to feel something to know I'm effected
Social strife, money woes. Wheres the help to go with my ultimate hope. Where is the cheering section that we may cheer each other along for worthy endeavours. Yea, that's what keeps me excited is working on the project. Here on steemit I'm proud to be a contributor and be rewarded nicely from time to time!! That has worked me well to keep working on the skill of the craft. I have spent allot of time tired and unmotivated even though deep inside I'm super enthusiastic and creative
I used to dream up songs and think of cool sayings when I used to go to work. I would play possible conversations in my mind. Think about how to get into peoples heads a bit so they could get where I am coming from. I like to figure other people out too! I know I can't always tell people everything I wish. That's why creative writing and song writing is important to me. To get some of those harder to tell stories, feelings and ideas out there. Somehow there is a drive/desire to be understood that keeps the creative process flowing...and hopefully soon flowering...instead of floundering
I've collected these ideas for years. Now calming down enough to get them out more and more. Takes time to get started but once it gets going it can go fairly easy and be fun. I gotta push myself to battle cabin fever. Staying inside from feeling too poor is not good for inspiration. It's much better if I even at least go for a walk. If I socialise a bit and get out do something physical perhaps I feel refreshed and ready. Work was bad for that. I'd feel locked up at work, then locked up at the house. While at the same time worrying about money. It was hard to find times to even write thoughts down, yet I always kept notebooks. I always at least played improvised experimental. Now I'm coming down from all of it and feeling the grand energies again!! Read a little today too! Helps get the mind going with ideas too!
And just saw a shooting star outside my window! A good sign :)