I know I've had some "issues" my whole life but luckily I managed to escape any major problem with drink. I think in part thanks to my problem with Canabis! XD

I think there is a lot in life to get you down! Especially in this system, life is not easy. But there is something deeper in me, I know the patterns that I do and stupid mistakes I make! I know they're mistakes while I'm making them but just sort of go along for the ride anyway! For example I recently bought a used car from a private seller! It was my very first car, he assured me he'd done work on it and all was well, even an oil change.

It was the first car I even looked at, they picked me up and dropped me off to see it and they seemed nice. I felt somewhat obligated but there was a small voice in my head! Flags that were showing that something was wrong.

He was claiming all kinds of work had been done but receipts showed nothing much, he sort of held the mot and hid part with his hand and I didn't press to hold it myself. I didn't even open the bonnet, what would I know anyway lol.

Thing dies on me while driving after 2 days, there was no oil in the car... But there was something very fishy with this guy, he ended up fobbing me off with some other faulty car lol... Oh boy...

See thing is I did a similar thing years ago when I bought my ex a car, got royaly ripped off there too... I think in both cases they were actually car dealers just getting rid of the crap!

Anyway... I kick myself because I am not stupid! But I constantly do stupid stuff like that!

I have other bad traits like being very lazy and leaving thing to the last minute! In pretty much every aspect of my life. I am trying to get better, keep ontop of the housework a bit more and work out a little! Hey I even ironed all my clothes for the first time in years the other day! XD Was nice having all clean fresh ironed clothes waiting everyday.

Motivation can be tough, just getting out of bed before midday is tough, I lay smoking weed, watching youtube... I know, my problem is weed and I think I have an internet addiction too.

I think I could also be bi-polar, I have symptoms like that, have really good ideas one day that I am sure will revolutionize the world and could probably convince you of it too but I can't follow anything through and soon fall into my pit of despair again.