I've been dedicating myself to a better life over 9 weeks now, eating way healthier than before, exercising with consistency and meditating became my new habbit.

Last Sunday we had a burger session with friends as you can see in this post from @exyle, but the hard truth is, my mouth loves it, my body complains about it. It just feels too much! Besides that, the next day feels so tiring, like I have a hangover. That's a sign of changes!
It has done wonders, and I'm honestly happy, this shows me I am actually going somewhere, and there I wish to stay forever.

BUT IT TAKES SO MUCH TIME!

I can notice the changes in my clothes, they fit much better than one month ago. I remember when I went to London in August, I bought a pair of jeans and that was sooo tight it made me regret buying them. So few weeks ago I tried them again, and voilà, it fits! And now they are even a bit loose. Man, THAT is a good feeling!

What is not a good feeling is expecting people are going to jaw-drop when they see me, saying how thiner I am. I expect this reaction all the time, every single day I am going to meet a friend. But guess what? Only three or four people has said something. It breaks me down, I am not gonna lie, it makes even more difcult to see myself in a different way. As much as I try to be positve, I can't pretend it's all perfect. I still look in the mirror and see the same old Bianca. But now I am trying to focus in what really matters.

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groceries / choped pumpkin, sweet potatoes and chicken.

WHAT REALLY MATTERS?

Yesterday I decided to do some changes in my meals.

1 - Eat fresh meals: instead of prep my meals like I was doing - and not enjoying eating it few days later at all - I am going to cut my vegetables and meat in the right portions, so I have everything measured to one person and I can cook it in 20min everyday.

2 - Replace the bad carbs: although I was already eating the "bad carbs" in a smaller portion, I decided to eat the better options instead. Pumpkin, sweet potatoes, brown rice, brown bread (this one I've been eating over 8 years already), chickpeas and cassava are my new options and I love them all. (my groceries in the picture above)

3 - Measure the food: I was just eating it randomly, now I measure each portion of everything. In the end my dish is still full, but this time with good options.

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pumpkin stew + feta cheese + sweet pepper and chicken.

A friend of mine told me to focus on my goals and only my goals. She said "don't lean on a scale, mirror or peoples opinion, do it because your body deserves to be healthy". And she was right, isn't this what my journey is all about?

This journey is not perfect, but it is not impossible, I believe it and I will achieve it. In the meanwhile I'm getting to know myself, good food and nice exercises; so life, BRING IT ON!