I think that it is a sign of my final capitulation because it has been so many years of constant endurance and I believe that something at some point would give within my body while in other patients it happened a long time ago.
I am baffled about my body because it lasted for so many years now and those 16 years of misery isn't the real number because before I was a dialysis patient I was already suffering, physically, financially, socially, and maybe all the -ly's you could imagine. That is why in this lifetime it was just like a kind of hell on earth for me.
I really just wanted to die but it seems that I have to wait until nature takes it's time on me. I do in some way wanted to achieve my goals but my parents are old and if they would not enjoy much of what I could give them then it is somehow pointless to pursue some of my life goals.
But it may be better to continue to fight although it is awfully hard and it seems hopeless, I will just do what it takes to get into my goals in life so that at least my parents could be proud of me and I just needed more time and prayers because it is getting more difficult to live as days passes by, I wish and hope that I could still press on despite that my body grows weaker as I can feel it creeping up on me.
we are all very proud of @cryptopie! the steemit community is very near you!
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I am so sorry to hear this.
I have an idea of what might help you.
It's called "Inclined Bed Therapy".
I have slept 5 nights now with my bed inclined.
What you do is raise the top feet of the bed 6 inches.
My husband and I can already feel a good difference.
It improves your ciruculation and puts less stress on the heart. It helps back problems and a large number of other problems.
It's free and it may help at least ease your pain and possibly improve your overall condition.
Let me know if you try it and how it is going.
https://inclinedbedtherapy.com/
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Prayers answereth all things you will definately be alright by the grace of God. You will be fine and healthy just believe in God and everything will be fine
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You must think of others in your immediate circle, not just on yourself because no man is an island.
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Hope sustains life. Be hopeful and pray to Almight GOD for your good health.
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God has been the one keeping you my friend, and i believe he will still keep you till you get whole because by the stripes of Jesus you have been healed already, so please just hang on my friend because your miracle of healing is on the way. Praying for you
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We just could pray for you bro ..... God bless you a normal life again and don't dishearten all will be good soon
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Hello friend, keep going these in a daily challenge, where you will have thousands of obstacles but I assure you that the greatest reward for your parents is to open your eyes, and check that you are still among us, and as I told you before, you are a warrior and You go towards the consolidation of your goals, if you fall get up and follow the end God gives you his arms. do not decay the mood. @cryptopie
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You just need prayers ..I pray for you .may Allah help you..you get health for your parents and life goals.
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Keep going!
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Hijo tanto tus padres, tus hermanos, tus vecinos, tu pueblo, tu nación, tus amigos y nosostros los timinianos estamos orgullosos de tí.
Tu vida tiene mucho sentido CAMPEÓN y para Dios eres especial.
Has y vivido y vivirás por muchos años más y tu condición mejorará.
Larga vida al Rey.
Dios te Bendiga.
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The struggle is hard and however much we want to surrender to obstacles, they are only tests that life gives us. You have been a pretty fighter and I do not agree on what you think.
You must put your head up and show what you are worth, what you are capable of doing. We all trust you.
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Your struggle is the real deal and it is a motivation for the steemit community that we should get some courageous lessons from your strength of not losing heart when An immense tension and pain is surrounded on our shoulders. Well done dear @cryptopie I personally pray and am highly motivated by your courage that now I don't flick by some minor disease like hypertension depression and heart broken feelings. Thank you for all the courage you show . And don't worry at all. Steemit community stand with you. Prayers will be answered soon. Get well soon
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